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  1. Javi

    Five Bands

    By Javi,

    Pick 5 bands / artists that you love before reading the following questions:
    fun.
    The National
    The Airborne Toxic Event
    The Hold Steady
    Bright Eyes

    What was the first song you ever heard by 1?
     
    "Walking the Dog". I still remember the day my best friend showed it to me..like..vividly. =P I had no idea that I had just been introduced to an artist that was gonna have such a huge impact on my life..it's weird, thinking back on it, that fun. wasn't ALWAYS a part of my life.
     
    Is there a song by 2 that makes you sad?
     
    Hah..it's The National! All of them. =) "Runaway" once made me cry.."Mr. November".."Slow Show".."Baby, We'll be Fine".."Lucky You"..
     
    What is your favorite song of 3?
     
    Hah..basically all of them except "Neda". =P I guess I'd have to say my absolute favourite is and will always be "Wishing Well"..I was so blown away when I heard that song. It's hard to say that I like any Airborne song more than another, though...
     
    What is your favorite song of 5?
     
    Either "Haligh, Haligh, a Lie, Haligh" or "First Day of My Life". They're both pretty equal to me..
     
    What kind of impact has 1 left on your life?
     
    Oh my God..I can't really describe the impact fun.'s had on my life. I happened to be introduced to them right before a period of ups and downs, lost friends, a crush on a certain girl I couldn't be with (but am with anyway)..fun. was there through all of that, making things better, whether things were good or bad. We drove six hours from North Carolina to Macon, Georgia to see them in concert. Words cannot describe the love I have for this band.
     
    What are your favorite lyrics of 5?
     
    "Besides, maybe this time it's different - I mean, I really think you like me."
     
    How many times have you seen 4 live?
     
    I'd love to see The Hold Steady live..but I'm still waiting for a concert in the area. =P
     
    What is your favorite song by 2?
     
    Oh, god. I would try to make a condensed list, but even that would come out to over thirty songs, I'm sure. I guess I'll just say "Slow Show", because I think I listen to it most frequently. Not that that's that much more frequently than the others. xD
     
    Is there any song by 4 that makes you sad?
     
    "First Night". Less because of the lyrics, and more because I fell in love with "Separation Sunday" and its characters: Charlemagne, Holly, Gideon, and the narrator. Hearing Craig sing about them like this - not partying, not being born again, not hopping from Stillwater to Ybor City, not doing hoodrat things - there's something incredibly sad about hearing how these characters self-destructed.
     
    What is your favorite song by 1?
     
    I can't answer that. It's fun.
     
    When did you first get into 2?
     
    Hah - I saw "Alligator" as a similar items listing on iTunes. I clicked it, read a really pretentious interview from some guy, and then listened to "All the Wine". I remember being unimpressed, leaving the page, and forgetting all about it. Later, I read about a favourable review for "Boxer" somewhere and decided to give them another shot. I immediately fell in love with "Fake Empire", and the rest of the album not long after. It was awhile before I got into their other records, but once I did, The National became one of my biggest musical influences. Since then, I've always been careful to never judge a band based on one song or one review. =P
     
    how did you get into 3?
     
    I'd been listening to "Wishing Well" for a week or so. I was staying up late one night. I happened to be sad, and I wanted to hear more songs like "Wishing Well", so I started the rest of the album. Needless to say, I was incredibly disappointed when I heard these upbeat indie-rock songs (it took awhile before I realised how dismal they really are lyrically). However, I came back to the album awhile later and slowly listened through the whole thing over the course of a few days. It just sort of grew on me and became a favourite record, and not long after that, a favourite band.
     
    What is your favorite song by 4?
     
    I guess I'd have to say "Your Little Hoodrat Friend". Though "How a Resurrection Really Feels", "First Night", and "Cattle and the Creeping Things" all might as well be tied, too.
  2. Javi

    Kissed Her =)

    By Javi,

    Pff, I kept forgetting to reply to people's comments on my blog posts..I really wanted to..ah, well..it's been quite a few days; I'd feel odd going back to those now.
     
    So - I kissed her yesterday! (Well, really, two days ago - Wednesday..) It was rather pleasant; my first kiss. Today (uhm, yesterday)..we kissed again..and I said something like "I don't think that was good enough, can I try again?" And after that, we just kept kissing over and over again for a long time - it seemed like a long time, anyway - and..it was just nice.
     
    I dunno - I guess what I'm saying is, things are going wonderfully so far. =)
  3. Javi

    Held Her Hand

    By Javi,

    So we hug as a hello/goodbye...but today was the first day I held her hand, and I believe the first time I've ever held hands at all (beyond jokingly, anyway)..and I was surprised at how pleasant it was, and how warm I felt from it..I didn't expect holding hands to be that nice.
     
    I believe that just leaves kissing - I'm not ready for that, even though she more or less told me that she'd be ohkay with it...ehh..I think that's something to wait for the right time for. We're going to an amusement park on April 9th - which is kinda far off - but it seems like a good time, potentially. But I'll probably do it sooner than that, assuming I get the chance..
  4. Javi
    It's quite a complicated situation. She's the best friend I've ever had, and I've liked her since..October? November? I dunno..but she was dating my best friend until a few weeks ago (they'd been dating for nine months, since sometime last year, before I really started to become friends with her). Anyway..things weren't going so great for them for the last few months..it was practically like they weren't even dating..and I felt incredibly guilty for liking her so much while they were going out..but I finally made up my mind to ask her out, and it turned out she's liked me for just as long..so we're dating now.
     
    Uhm..this isn't how I'd have liked to explain it..it just sounds dumb..but she's really a lovely girl, and I'm really happy to be with her. I wish I could explain the situation right..but oh, well.
  5. Javi

    Failing Gym..

    By Javi,

    ..and I got grounded for it. =/
     
    It's a health/PE class, and we were on the health bit. We had open-book tests to take on our school's website - twenty-eight of them, I think, and a good five or six weeks to take them. I was doing really good with keeping up with it..but then there was that..and I spent most of the class talking to my best friend's girlfriend/one of my best friends...and by the time the last week before break rolled around, I quite simply did not want to work. So I figured I'd do it over break - only I forgot to write down the code for the online book. So I decided not to worry about it; figured that he gave us so much time already, and I assumed that we'd probably have another week to finish up. I was wrong - he closed all the assessments on Monday, and I'd only finished three of the eight I had left. Which counted as zeros, and brought my grade to a 72..which my mom saw, of course. Disadvantage to having computers in school - grades update online instantly, and your parents can see them. Which really sucks.
     
    So I got my phone and computer taken away - although the worst thing she took was really my iPod and my small collection of CDs. But another good friend (I should really pseudonym people here..) gave me a Sublime greatest hits album for Christmas, which has been in my backpack, so if I can dig out my old CD player, I'll at least have something. I'm sure I'll get a little sick of Sublime over the course of three weeks - although the friend who gave me the CD offered to sync some music to her old Nano for me.
     
    I've never been grounded - and the worst part is going to be losing the social life I just started to get...I have real friends, good friends, that I really enjoy spending time with - and now I'm stuck at home for half a month. Ah, well..there's always school to talk to people, I guess. And the occasional chance to get on the computer to do "homework" or "study". My mom said she'll give everything back if I can pull my gym and biology grades up to B's..biology's almost there, and definitely will be by Friday - it's just gym that I'm not sure what to do about. I'm gonna try asking the teacher if I can have one more chance to finish the assessments up, and if not, if there's any sort of extra credit I can do. Cuz it'd really be nice to have this weekend to go do something. =/
  6. Javi

    So, Uh..

    By Javi,

    I don't know why I'm bothering to write this, since anyone who might have happened to read my blog has probably stopped checking. But eh.
     
    Firstly: I never asked out that girl. At first because I was too nervous, and then later because I've been having feelings for someone else lately (only I can't have feelings for her). In any case, I blew it.
     
    Second: The past month and a half has been terrible. And it's also been incredible. If there's one thing it's always been, though, it's busy..I wish I could describe it, but I think most of it would conflict with the rules on this website. Point is that I've cried for someone, laughed more than I ever have in my life, and loved my friends even more for everything we've all been through since this summer. I've lost a bad friend, but I've made a best friend that likes being around me as much as I like being around her. I've said and done things that I regret now, but if I had the opportunity to change anything that's happened, I wouldn't. Because everything is perfect the way it is now, and I wouldn't change that for the world.
     
    Recent events have also had a very positive effect on my songwriting. I'm getting better, I think.
     
    So this must be it - welcome to the new year.
  7. Javi

    As I Understand It

    By Javi,

    In the event that my ridiculous amount of blog posts on the subject has not made it clear, here is the situation as I understand it:
     
    - For whatever reason, she does not talk to me. And as soon as band is over, she will probably continue not talking to me unless I attempt to do something tonight. At least if I ask her out and she says no, I might be able to get a just friends and move on. Either way, she's really cool, and I'd like to be able to talk to her.
     
    - I have no more time to procrastinate this. If the football team loses tonight, it's the last game of the season. That just leaves one after-school rehearsal and the parade. Out of the three, a football game seems best. Though I suppose the parade wouldn't be too bad either.
     
    - I can't keep obsessing over this; as annoyingly cliche as it is, I guess "the worst you can get is no" is probably right. The only problem is my random onsets of depression, which seem to get stronger every time I think about asking her out.
     
    I got an energy drink earlier...so now I'm really jittery and nervous, but it's better than being really nervous and depressed. So, err...wish me luck. Though odds are I won't wind up doing it.
  8. Javi
    And that's how the world began...and that's how the world will end. 
    Unsurprisingly, I didn't ask her out. I didn't even try. I've decided that it's time to give up...as incredibly sweet, cute, funny, and lovable as she is, I can't bring myself to ask her out. She never responds to text messages (something I do kind of understand). But she also never talks to me unless she needs to ask something band-related, and she never makes eye contact. I actually turned around one time tonight and caught her eye - she looked away almost immediately. I don't know what to think, but the impression she's given me is that of disinterest, and I think I need to assume that's what she's trying to say. So I think it's time to give in and give up. After all, maybe I'll have the chance to get to know her better sometime, and if I ask her out and she rejects me now, I'll never have the chance to ask her again. If there's really something I find so incredibly attractive about her, it'll still be there a few months..or a year..from now. In the meantime - I suppose I continue on miserable. It's not like it's such a huge change from the norm, anyway. If I asked her out, I would be crushed. If she said yes, I would be elated. If I don't do anything, I can continue on with the comfort of a familiar feeling.
     
    I'd still love to know when it was that I lost that leg, though.
  9. Javi

    Things Are Looking Up

    By Javi,

    Well, not really. But I at least feel a little better than I have been lately.
     
    Hung out with my friend's girlfriend and her friend on Saturday (my friend couldn't make it, so it was kinda weird). Still had a lot of fun, though. Definitely made me feel better than I had been.
     
    Went over to another friend's house on Halloween. We supervised a bunch of little kids trick-or-treating, and then we spent the rest of the night wandering around the neighborhood talking.
     
    I made up my mind to ask her out on Thursday or Friday. It's really my last chance, with band season just about coming to an end. I figure that, even though I'm almost sure at this point she's going to say no, it's worth trying. I'll regret it if I don't try, anyway.
  10. Javi
    Tired. 

    Guilty. 

    Paranoid. 

    Depressed. 

    Same old same old same old same.. 

    I firmly believe that nothing ever changes, and everything repeats itself. Because this feels all too familiar. And two weeks from now, when she says no...I don't know how I'm going to deal with the miserable next three months. 

    Which will inevitably happen. 

    And there is simply nothing I can do that will make it otherwise. 
    Entry Song: Please, Please, Please Let Me Get What I Want by The Smiths
  11. Javi

    Coming To A Close

    By Javi,

    Marching band is essentially over.
     
    At some point over this season, I decided I liked it. Or that I wanted to give it a fair chance next year. And I think I'm gonna miss it, actually. I'm not sure what I'm gonna do with Tuesday, Thursday, Friday, and Saturday nights...
     
    The big problem is that this cuts me off from the girl I like, more or less. I need to really start talking to her as much as I can. Maybe start sitting with her at lunch...since she seems to not text all that much, I gotta find some way to keep talking to her if I wanna have a chance..
     
    So anyway, our last competition was last Saturday. I didn't really talk to her much before prelims...a little after. But that's still better than I usually do when it comes to talking to girls I like. And the fact that she's just as shy and soft-spoken around people she's not familiar with as I am - it's kinda difficult.
     
    But finals - we won grand champion overall. Everyone went insane and ran onto the field. And she just ran up to me and jumped on me and hugged me. It was nice..
     
    I don't really know what to think. She's kinda giving me mixed signals, I guess. Don't know what to make of anything anymore..
     
    Entry Song: On Melancholy Hill by Gorillaz
  12. Javi
    ..
     
    have an enemy
     
    For the most part, I'm okay with just about everyone - unless they do something to me, I don't really care/judge them. This kid hasn't really done much to me...I just really, really hate him. He's a narcissistic, egotistical, annoying #####. I hate everything about him - his appearance, voice, sense of humour, laugh...he completely disgusts me. (I don't hate him for no reason; he's always been nasty to me and I resent him for it.)
     
    And I overheard him say that he likes the girl I like.
     
    gotta do something
     
    I don't think I could live with losing my chance with a girl to this kid...and what's worse is that he seems to be doing ten times better with her when it comes to talking and hanging out. I really like her - I don't want to lose her to the person I despise the most in the world. So I gotta do something...I guess starting with talking to her more if I can tonight. It would help if I didn't get so nervous that I can't think of anything to say besides "Hey"...
     
    Entry Song: Head Like A Hole by Nine Inch Nails
  13. Javi

    Things Go

    By Javi,

    Haven't really made any progress...if anything, I've been talking to her less, which sucks. I think the problem is that she has an annoying habit for almost never remembering to bring her phone anywhere. So if I wanna talk to her, I gotta happen to text her at home...I need to just start hanging out with her a bit. it'd be much easier. She's so fun to talk to..
     
    Also, sorry to everyone who's had pending trades for...probably a month now. -.- I'm desperately trying to not be lazy and get this all figured out. As soon as I do, I'm taking the trades down for now...I'll restart it in the spring, maybe. Might not even be a good time then...I'll figure it out.
     
    ---
     
    Entry Song: Untitled #1 by Sigur Rós
  14. Javi
    Hate Coldplay all you want...The Scientist is still a beautiful song.
     
    I don't understand my bouts of depression. It's not like anything's really happened, or changed, or maybe that's the problem. I don't really know...all I really want to do is curl up in bed and hope I don't ever have to wake up. I wish I could cry, but I don't seem to be capable of it anymore.
     
    I think maybe I did this to myself...I haven't been like this in almost a year, and just this week it's been coming back...things were much easier when I didn't bother feeling anything.
     
    I really hate the fact that I'm never happy. I always think that if one thing or the other happens...I'll be happier..but I know that's not true. I don't think so, anyway.
     
    There's never a good day...only terrible days and alright days. Hah.
  15. Javi
    I asked her for her number tonight...she said she didn't have her phone on her (she doesn't know her number ), but to leave a note with my number on it in her locker. Which is a good thing, I guess, only that means she's got my number and I don't have hers, so it's really her decision if she even wants to talk to me..
     
    Well, at least she hasn't avoided/rejected me at all. Which hopefully is a good thing, too. She'd have to be stupid not to realize I like her, though...my senior friend made it relatively obvious. -.-
  16. Javi
    -.-
     
    I was talking to one of the few friends I made in marching band today...he mentioned that he was gonna ask a girl out. So I felt like I was obliged to tell him who I liked. He asked me if I would be mad if he just went up to her and said "Nick has a question for you" (of course I would be). And a couple seconds after that, she walked up and of course he says that I have something to ask her..and I had absolutely no clue what to say. "Oh hey, can I have your number?" That's not weird at all...so I just stalled until her friends came over there and she walked away. At that point, my friend was pretty annoyed with me, so he walked over and asked her to give me her number. She didn't have her phone on her and she couldn't remember her own number, so my friend told me to ask her again when we got back to the school.
     
    stupid band contest
     
    nervous bus ride
     
    And then when we got back to the school...I couldn't do it. It wasn't even that hard a thing to do. My friend even took care of the weird part. All I had to do was say "Oh hey, you got your phone on you? Trade numbers real quick". I don't understand..why these things make me so nervous. I even tried, but she was so tired..I said hey...and then I couldn't think of what to say next.
     
    I've never been more disappointed in myself..I mean, for God's sake, I can't even ask a girl for her number? How am I ever gonna get up the nerve to ask her out?
     
    I just needed to say it somewhere, to help me think it through a little...
     
  17. Javi
    I went to an amusement park today with a group of friends...it was fun. It was me, my friend, his girlfriend, her friend, and a couple other friends of mine and his. It was all Halloween themed - lots of people jumping out at you in creepy costumes. Not all that scary, but still fun.
     
    But, as seems to be custom for me whenever I do something social that's any fun at all, I got depressed almost right after. I was in a car with just me and then my friend and his girlfriend...she fell asleep resting her head on him. I can't help but be kinda jealous of him...not specifically his girlfriend, but to have that close a relationship with a girl..I wish I wasn't so scared of rejection, or I'd ask out the girl I like now...ah, well..
  18. Javi

    I Hate These People

    By Javi,

    I can't take band anymore.
     
    There's a few really great people, but then there are so many others that are just outright annoying. I don't like marching band at all. I'm in it because I was too scared to tell my mom that I didn't wanna do it.
     
    STRIKE ONE - I got to Tuesday's band practice at 5:55. You need to be out on the field by 6:15. I get a "hurry up, you're gonna be late!"...mind your own business. It's really not your problem that I couldn't make it any earlier than that.
     
    STRIKE TWO - Thursday's band practice, at the end of the second movement, I got four people behind me saying "trombone player! Don't move! You move every time!" Super exasperated, incredibly annoyed...and all I did was move my hand so I could bring my instrument up when the drum major called horns up. Guess who didn't move? And who's horn didn't come up fast enough?
     
    STRIKE THREE - I was joking with my friend (not my friend, I despise him actually) and I said I could push him into the bushes and kill him. He said yeah, but then no one could fill his spot tomorrow and we'd lose. I told him I don't care. The girl walking in front of me has to turn around and give me a whole "if you don't care then drop out" speech. Sure, I'd love to. You deal with the hole. I'm only doing this for people like them who actually care! I'm doing my best because I don't wanna bring the people who like it down, but it's really hard when they're this annoying.
     
    Anyway, I'm really toying with the idea of just getting out of this. I hate these people.
  20. Javi
    I made a list of all the sets I believe I have. I'm not actually selling anything yet, but I'd like to know if there's actually an interest in any of these. I'm assuming I'd charge $3 for a small set, $6 for a canister set, and $10 for a large set (give or take, depending on the size of the model and the original price). If I do this, it'd be for cash only - I would be doing this because I desperately want a bass guitar.
     
    Here's the list:
     
    Matau
    Nuju
    Onewa
    Jala
    Maku
    Gahlok
    Lehvak
    Tahu Nuva
    Lehvak-Kal
    Gahlok-Kal
    Kopeke
    Matoro
    Hahli
    Hewkii
    Hafu
    Macku
    Panrahk
    Lerahk
    Guurahk
    Vorahk
    Turahk
    Toa Lhikan & Kikanalo
    Toa Matau
    Toa Vakama
    Keerakh
    Tehutti
    Nidhiki
    Krekka
    Turaga Dume and Nivawk
    Iruini
    Toa Hordika Vakama
    Toa Hordika Nokama
    Toa Hordika Onewa
    Toa Hordika Matau
    Toa Hordika Nuju
    Keelerak
    Suukorak
    Toa Iruini
    Vezok
    Zaktan
    Thok
    Axonn
    Brutaka
    Toa Hahli
    Toa Jaller
    Toa Kongu
    Carapar
    Mantax
    Ehlek
    Pridak
    Defilak
    Dekar
    Toa Mahri Kongu
    Toa Mahri Jaller
    Toa Mahri Hewkii
    Toa Mahri Hahli
    2008 Lewa Nuva
    2008 Pohatu Nuva
    Vamprah
    Chirox
    Gavla
    Kirop
    Toa Ignika
    Krika
    Bitil
    Rockoh T3
    Stronius
    Mata Nui
    Kaxium V3 (I only have the smaller half and its rider; for some reason my friend and I decided to split the set )
    Rahkshi
    Tahu
    Piraka
    Takanuva
    Gresh
    Skrall
     
    I haven't actually rebuilt all of these sets yet, so there might be some that aren't on that list, and some that would have to come off it due to missing parts. But that's the general idea - anyone interested in anything up there?
  21. Javi

    Birthday

    By Javi,

    It's my birthday and for the first time in my life, I really don't care. xP I already know I'm getting an iPod Classic (though my sister said there's a surprise, too, so I don't know). I'm not even hanging out with my friends 'til Sunday. And I have to go and march in the first football game of the season tonight.
     
    I did get $100 from my grandparents, though...only my mom won't let me spend it because she says I need money to hang out with my friends. Whoopee.
  22. Javi

    $$ Problems

    By Javi,

    I'm gonna hang out with my friends (we do this pretty much every week) and go to an all-you-can-eat pizza place. I need $10 a week; without a job, I can't afford that. I ask my mom for money, but I hate doing that because I know we don't have that much to blow. Today, she told me she can't afford to give me $40 a month. I have suggested several times in the past that I sell some stuff for money. She always says I can't because it'll be worth more later or it has too much sentimental value.
     
    So basically, I have no source of income and I can't get any money from my parents. At 15, it's pretty much impossible to get a regular job. I could do odd jobs, but I'm not sure what I honestly could pull off - I don't even know how to mow a lawn. Fun, right? I'm basically stuck in the house all the time, or I have to be in debt to my friends constantly until I can pay them back.
  23. Javi

    Greenman!

    By Javi,

    Just some information on Greenman - the character Charlie Kelly on "It's Always Sunny In Philadelphia" used to dress up in a green spandex suit when he was in high school. People called him greenman.
     
    So my friend bought a Greenman suit, and he decided to crash band camp. He just ran out on the field and starting shouting at people. Another one of my friends filmed it...apparently, they hung out at the school after and someone recognized my friend that was taping it - he's really good with people though, and he was able to get both of them out of trouble. So everything went good and it was pretty funny. Great day - made band camp worth it.
     
    (I don't think I mentioned that I didn't want to do marching band; it was too late to drop out by the time I convinced my mom that I really didn't want to do it).
  24. Javi
    So I'm both incredibly stupid and incredibly greedy..
     
    My mom's friend threw a party, and her husband works for a local hospital. Apparently, the hospital staff keeps giving him assignments that aren't his job - one of them being to create a Craigslist-like page that the hospital staff can use to sell stuff (or something along those lines). He needs it in PHP - I told him I'd done work with HTML and that I could probably learn PHP. I'm worried I might not be able to learn PHP, though - I really need some help. Could someone at the very least point me in the right direction? Or better yet, happen to have a copy of the PHP code for Craigslist laying around..?
     
    Here's the email he sent me:
     

     
    I'm hoping you can see the dilemma.
     
    Any response would be greatly appreciate - please, I'm begging. I'm hoping that if I can do this good, he might give me more stuff to do and I'll be able to make some money this summer.
     


     
     
  25. Javi
    I was in Best Buy yesterday, and the guy beside me was looking at iPads. He told his wife that "you could never fill 16GB in your life". I kinda laughed and he looked at me and I told him I could.
     
    It's just weird how different the perspective on technology is for different people. For the average person, 16GB really is a ton of space. The tech-savvy could tag a zero on the end and still fill up the whole thing.
     
    Oh, and they need to make 160GB Touches. I'd be in heaven.
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