Noxryn

ive been playin ffxiv, tho im kinda jus raidlogging in that game (i miss my home server of balmung so much qq), some classic world of warcraft with a few friends where we basically jus get drunk and run around for a while

lil bit of overwatch 'cuz of the lego bastion skin and my boyfriend picked up fire emblem for me so ive been (slowly) playing that, too 

to be honest, nostalgia every so often prompts me to check back into this place for a lil while. seeing the otc forum and familiar names from back when i was an active roleplayer is, idk, nice sometimes? y'know despite like, all the dumb things that went on that i ended up a part of way back when lol

otc as a subforum still feels like a new addition, never grew used to it bein there 

made me feel old when i realized the thread i had pinned in there was 8 years old which like, i was 16 when i wrote it 

been a wild ride albeit one i wouldnt ride again considerin all the bumps

 

It'd be weird since it's not an active line and hasn't done well near the end of its lifespan, which is pretty much why I don't feel like it'd be used for the medium. Also not really widespread in terms of media, unlike Ninjago that has its own show that airs on CN.

But you can make fun of it in the same way those movies use comedy, it's not that hard to take a child's toyline that decided to try and be as dark and "serious" as possible during some of its later years, in all the wrong ways, and laugh at it.

 

I have more care about the characters than their barely present vehicles, so I'd spend on the characters if I was particularly attached to them.

havent you heard? theyre all trans girls now. make your dreams come true

the only good canonization to ever come out of BZPower.com

when i was really into the series probs lesbians with nixie

otherwise idk maybe gali or something im boring

edit: also lariska

I met Serein here. 

There isn't really another memory that comes close, to be honest. 

FFXIV, it's fun and I like Red Mage. Joined a RP FC, so that's been something to do and is overall a pretty relaxing thing. Trying to level DRK up to 70 (63 atm), RDM was my first to 70, SAM my second. 

Splatoon 2 with some friends, which is a game I've been enjoying a lot more than I thought I would -- I like getting new clothes. 

Overwatch, less than I used to, but not doing ranked in it anymore makes the game feel more relaxed. Even if all I did were my placements for points, but overall, too much of a pain to worry about placing back in Plat for them and too drained 90% of the time to try and get up to diamond+. Can still be stressful sometimes since I get matched with Masters/Diamonds in the quick play mode a lot. But RIP that master-tier Genji who kept going for me on Widow. Felt good. 

Some Fire Emblem Fates, further along than I was, and is still a cute game. Kinda regret getting Conquest, but I'm playing it on a lower difficulty because I'm more there to have fun, rather than take 20 hours to plan a strategy to use. After beating Awakening on every difficulty/modifier felt like taking this one easy. 

And some FFXII, I picked up a copy recently and it's pretty fun. Gambit system is a little middleground for me, as I usually prefer just actual turn based combat or reactive combat not designed around queuing moves. But it doesn't take too much away for me. 

 

medical gender-stuff

(all good things)

i read the title and now i wonder where the last 13 years went of my life 

still wigs me out that this series is older than WoW b/c my brain thinks that's old still

I used to pose them sometimes and take pictures for fun. Otherwise, sometimes I'd use them as drawing references, I'd moc things and make stories out of it (I have a penchant for doing that idk), or I'd build stuff to calm down from bad anxiety attacks in the middle of the night (or any time, really). 

Last two MOCs I built, both kind of unfinished, were done during potent anxiety attacks and it overall helps me distract myself and calm myself down. So, I guess I mostly use them for therapeutic reasons?

I got a lot of stuff when Serein came to visit, though I'd have to actually go through it all again to make such a comprehensive list as she did xp 

(I mean I might do that sometime, it's just all upstairs currently and I'm comfy)

But right now, the most recent thing was Within Temptation's album Hydra. 

"Let Us Burn" -- Within Temptation: Hydra

A number of my friends own the system and, to my knowledge, none of them have experienced any of the hardware issues or problems described here? Then again, I honestly can't think of a released console where lemons did not exist. 

Either way, the system itself looks like fun. The portability is nice, the variety of controller set up is nice, a lot of the games look enticing to me (Zelda: Breath of the Wild, Splatoon 2, Mario Kart 8, Fire Emblem: Heroes, Disgaea 5, etc... )

I'd like to pick one up eventually. As of now, they're pretty much sold out everywhere and Amazon mostly has an army of scammers selling them. 

Screw it. It's fun. 

No shame in having fun, and having something to help relax and blow off steam. 

 

That made me think of just how diverse the members of this site are.  We've got anime addicts, a Muslim, an atheist, some Christians, some trans folks, a pair of lesbians, a gay guy, gender fluidity, and whatever EmperorWhenua is.

Really dealing with the whole box of crayons here.

youd be really surprised at how diverse this site actually is, its just that a lot of people might just not ever talk about a lot of that kind of stuff. idk if this is still how it is since ive been largely inactive as of late, but i know as recently as just a few years ago - especially before the server upgrade in 2011, when the site was really active - this site had a LOT of specifically conservative christian people. needless to say, it fostered a rather ... unpleasant environment, at least to me

 

i for one know like, a dozen trans women alone who are/were members of bzpower, myself included. i also happen to be a lesbian myself, if my original post was any indication

 

I'm still heavily reminded of, before the server and website upgrade, way back when any LGBT+ content was absolutely not allowed in Short Stories, Epics, Artwork, or any creative work or form of expression. Not to mention all of the (largely) ex-members who used to be incredibly cruel, abrasive and insulting that would stir up things every now and again.

When those days were those days this place absolutely sucked to be a part of.

It's been nice to make blog entries/posts talking about transgender stuff, or mentioning my girlfriend, etc... without someone coming along to insult me over it (By and large, experience can vary). 

So I guess what's on my mind now is just that I'm grateful the website became a lot more open over time, that a lot of the people who caused trouble and problems in the memberbase by dehumanizing and actively harming, harassing, insulting, degrading other members are largely gone. 

there's activity but not nearly as much as there used to be, but tbh forums in general feel like relics of an older time on the internet with so many other options that are now available for everyone to use

even most tbrpg forums i was on died out or swapped to other formats, like Discord

why would you need to use a vortex combo in order to push someone off a cliff.

b/c it is the greatest form of disrespect

There's a duel and everything.

did u guardbreak tekulo and use ur vortex combo to ultimately shove him off a cliff tho

o i didnt realize 4 ended already oops

im goin with i was makin sure mcstabbed was alright enough to keep his soul in his body

my contribution to this text based game

I've been trucking through the For Honor story mode after getting the Warden up to level 14 in PvP. Almost 2/3rds of the way through it, but the last mission I did was a doozy. 

So far I've just been an oblivious idiot getting in the way

 stand and fight u coward

IC: 

- Vwynolyn; Hopes n Dreams - 

"I... I just hope what happens here, I hope it's good. I don't... really know what I'll do with myself if it doesn't go well," she commented mentally as her hand rubbed the back of her neck, her mien falling a bit as she let out a long sigh. "Well... I guess, either way, I'd end up out of both of your hair," she added, feeling as if Zafin would be happy for that. Granted, to Vwynolyn, the woman didn't seem terribly warm to her, even if Vwyn found herself enjoying the times when they conversed. 

IC: 

- Vwynolyn; idk lol - 

To that inquiry, there was an uncharacteristically long silence from Vwynolyn. For a long, few moments her eyes shifted down to the ground, staring at it for a bit until she let out an audible sigh. "To be honest," she started quietly, "it didn't provide me with much purpose. I still feel like I lack that. Purpose, direction, meaning," her mental words paused for a moment, "Kozu didn't let me be who I am. So, even there, I felt like I lacked a real purpose. As if I was... a fake, taking on a purpose that was not mine. I don't know if that makes sense to you. And in Sado, it felt... purposeless, directionless, though I was at least happier that I felt things were a little more on my terms from time to time." She paused again, running her fingers over the back of her neck as she thought. "I still feel that way. When I leave here, no matter what's said and done, I'm not sure what I'd do. There's things I want to learn, and do, but finding someone willing to teach me much of anything will be hard. Especially without any money, or, enough to pay for the trouble of dealing with someone like me." 

She rubbed her fingers over her bicep in a shy gesture, not so honest about that worry before.