Jump to content

Noxryn

Premier Retired Staff
 View Profile  See their activity

  • Posts

    3,732

  • Joined

  • Days Won

    3

 Content Type 

Blog Entries posted by Noxryn

  1. Noxryn

    Games, Life, Stuff

    By Noxryn,

    idk if i'll ever regularly update this blog but here's an update:
     
    - preordered Pokemon Alpha Sapphire and excited for it to come tomorrow (my friend already has his own copy, though he lives in Australia and it released there)
     
    - preordered Dragon Age: Inquisition and my sister already has her copy of the game (she did digital download), and i'm waiting for my own copy to come in the mail 'cuz i like having the physical box and stuff (and it saves some space on my ps4's harddrive).
     
    - playing Warlords of Draenor in World of Warcraft and having a lot of fun with the new expansion; really made me dig orcs and find their stories interesting. kinda started following the Draenor politics between the clans/Iron Horde and then started to read the orc quests on current day Azeroth to see where the story diverged with their allegiances and how the Iron Horde change will affect them (since some became demon cults, which might not be the case when most of the orcs in the expansion didn't drink the demon blood so curious about it). plus i mean -technically- there's two Burning Legions and two Sargerases now, and im kinda curious if Blizzard will do anything with that or stick to the "not even dealing with time doubles" position.
     
    that's just it for games though
     
    for other stuff it's mostly been like
     
    - counseling, which is going well and i've been given numerous resources for what i need (mostly trans resources, like the address for the Gender Identity Center and some run downs of their programs, like, apparently, they have a sort of mentor program where someone from their organization will go to stores with you and help you find clothes in your size and stuff so you don't have to do it alone... i like the idea and maybe ill make use of it sometime down the line, but with my social anxiety disorder and generalized anxiety disorder it's not really easy for me to do that).
     
    - went to a trans discussion group today in the glbt center of my university, after seeing some of their transgender remembrance ceremony (which i didn't attend in full since i get really emotional really easily and didn't want to end up in tears), but after i was able to look at some books and someone from their group took a couple pictures of me which i didnt mind (they asked permission and stuff). but everyone there seemed pretty nice, i didn't say a word even when the group went 1hr over time due to my anxiety problems (i stutter heavily, or blank, or kinda cant' physically move my lips -- it's sort of a mess).
     
    - one of my professors said my writing's incredible and is giving me a lot of leeway with page numbers (as in i dont have to write a 3-4 page paper so long as i can cover everything, be it less than 3-4 pages or longer). it kinda means something since she's also one of the English professors and works in the English department alongside the Women and Gender studies programs, and teaches some of the higher level English courses at the university. idk, it felt nice to be complimented (and tbh all my papers submitted in my comp II course rarely come back with much more than a "you used a comma splice here" or "you used a passive voice here" and it's usually only one or two of those per paper, if that (rest is usually sections underlined with compliments, which still kinda surprises me).
     
    - next semester i want to take a creative writing course, since that would actually really help me with what i want to do by the end of next year (apply for an internship). mostly, Blizzard Entertainment (the people who made World of Warcraft, Diablo, Overwatch, Starcraft, etc...) have an internship program for college students every year, as in the deadline's December to apply and you need in depth knowledge of WoW's lore (thus my playing it and reading books), on top of a portfolio of creative works to submit (which is why im not applying this year, since i haven't done a lot of creative works i'm proud of since most of them were impulse writing). kinda starting with my creative short story for my final project in my Women and Gender studies course.
     
    - thinking to minor in Women and Gender studies and major in English (probably still an emphasis on education? in case i can't get a creative writing job it'd be nice to be able to fall back on the teaching idea).
  2. Noxryn

    Kit and MMO's

    By Noxryn,

    MMO's I've played/am Playing 'Cuz Why Not
     
    - World of Warcraft (still playing)
    - Aion Online
    - Tera
    - Guild Wars
    - Guild Wars 2 (still playing, on and off)
    - Rift
    - Wildstar
    - Final Fantasy XIV
    - Archeage
     
    Prolly some others, but I can't remember them.
     
    Aion, WoW, Tera, GW2 and FFXIV probably have my favorite gaming memories in them. WoW on the basis that I had no clue how MMO's worked and, for the most part, solo'd an entire dungeon on a Paladin during the Cataclysm expansion thinking I was supposed to do it that way. Plus, the story has more memories for me -- I'm not that knowledgeable of it, but I generally liked it and it reminded me a lot of the books I read when I was younger, like the all the works that featured Drizzt Do'Urden.
     
    Aion sorta taught me what a dungeon was, and had a class I adored (chanter, chanters are the best ever). Technically I was a support role, but I had to take over the primary healing role a lot in that game (and received compliments quite a few times, many saying I healed better on a support character than most clerics they ran into). Mostly dropped it since the RNG was a huge feature of the game (RNG as in, if you want the best stats for anything, you need to spend a ton of in-game money to get the items and then hope that, as you're socketing them, they don't shatter all the expensive ones you had. Failure rates were extremely high, same for enchanting weapons). I like RNG, but I like it in doses (WoW's is pretty decent I feel, I get cool stuff enough to weigh out when I get zilch, Aion just broke all my stuff constantly). XIV had a nice RNG system, where the items you want can drop, but you always get some tokens you can use for the next tier of items. I miss my chanter since not only was he the best class, but the character creator basically let me import one of my older OC's and he got really neat wings and Asmodians just fit the profile for him so well >.>
     
    Tera was the first game I started actively RPing in, mostly because I could play a castanic in a full set of plate armor, a massive lance and give him the Armstrong disposition (see; FMA). But how scantily clad -everything- was and the community that attracted began to really weigh down the game, that and the world felt incredibly dead. The story was non-existent, the water couldn't be touched, the buildings were basically open domes in most cases, the crafting was just misery, the amount of farming to do felt painful, the end game dungeons (only two) were plagued with glitches and 'elite' players. I'm never going to forget Kaprima. I fought Kaprima so many times. So. Many. Times. When they released more content they basically broke their game and after that my guild basically said "nope" and most of us left. (Our guild was a small, fun RP group who somehow had a province we'd win every election -- we did host some server wide events, like the zombie game, which was pretty fun to be a part of).
     
    Guild Wars 2 is where I met a ton of friends and was the first game where I was actually exposed to a larger LGBTQ+ community. I feel some elements of the story are the reason for that, since there's openly gay, lesbian and pansexual characters in the game itself (Sylvari, as a species, are predominantly pansexual and the official relationships they had in canon reflected that for the most part). Still, I love my mesmer sylvari and I loved RPing as him in this game -- basically an adult-sized four year old (literally four years old, the oldest sylvari in existence is like 25 or so). I loved so many things about the story initially, the Nightmare Court, the Inquest, the Wardens and the Pale Tree -- I am still incredibly saddened they never did much with these organizations. Nightmare Court has little written in terms of motivation (Why do they hate everyone? Why do they want to corrupt The Dream? Why do they murder, maim and kill in the name of corrupting the Dream? Why are they so vehemently against Ventari's teachings when most sylvari seem fine with them? They're never really developed, and in te moment where they could have been developed Anet opted to create the Toxic Alliance which I still hate). The RP in the game was fun, the community was pretty decent, the PvP and WvW were interesting and engaging before the latter turned into Blobfest. But the game itself became stale and never developed the interesting aspects about its story and constantly introduced new things instead of building on older things.
     
    I miss FFXIV on the basis I loved the miqo'te males and I loved healing. Plus, I beat most of the major content in that game when it was still particularly hard (latency issues in the Titan Hard Mode fight made it's difficulty much higher, since you'd need to know the rotation by heart so you could move out of the instagib moves before they went off server-side, since you couldn't see it client-side). But the RPers became plagued with elitists who demanded specialized statistics and methodology that took away from the freeform players, and the raiding/dungeon community was beyond terrible in terms of attitude. (Forcing new players to skip story laden cinematics in story dungeons, for example).
     
     
    Now I did like Wildstar, but it got boring really fast. All there was, was quests and completing them and running from hub to hub. Little to do with exploration and the dungeons just murdered too many groups to make them viable to pug. The PvP was too chaotic and large scale, the maps too small to accommodate the amount of players adequately. Plus, the story can be really, really dark which was a huge shock since all the trailers, narrations and so forth seemed to point towards a light hearted story with jokes and gags akin to Ratchet and Clank. Kind of a huge shock when you go into the game and realized that there's children who've witnessed their entire families torn apart, burned alive, and they're the last remainders who are mourning over their family/lamenting about what they can do.
  6. Noxryn

    fyi

    By Noxryn,

    dont use "bro" or "dude" or "guy" if the person you're referring to explicitly asked you not to
     
    it's rude and it's not funny
  8. Noxryn

    Intent.

    By Noxryn,

    Intent doesn't matter when you make something potentially harmful, or say something that is harmful, or do something that is harmful. I don't really give a flying crab what your intent was, if you sit there and insult an entire swathe of people, or delegate them to a terrible representation in your media, you're at fault. You can be criticized, rightfully so.
     
    If you chuck a rock at someone and think you're absolved of wrongdoing by stating "I had no intention of hurting you" that won't fly, you're the one who made the poor decision to throw the rock anyway and are liable for the damage.
     
    Or you can sit there and argue semantics for an hour, making yourself look like a tool.
     
    Your choice.
  9. Noxryn

    terrible memory

    By Noxryn,

    the fact I accurately remember my password on a regular basis and can sign in from not my laptop still shocks and astounds me
     
    (I have really bad memory and I never actually sign into my account)
  11. Noxryn

    bionicle stuff

    By Noxryn,

    whenever i go to add new entry with the feature outside of my blog on the drop down list it still uses my older blog title, weird
     
    anyway
     
    on the whole bionicle coming back thing 'cuz i should say something as i was/is a fan of it
     
    - hope it's a reboot
    - hope the story doesn't become a convoluted mess of dark edginess and attempts to be gritty (and vezon can go away forever ok)
    - hope the story is able to create its own unique identity
    - hope the story is fun to read and features a larger, more interesting cast of female characters
    - hope the story doesn't create the silly gender restrictions like last time, because that was terrible
    - hope makuta goes away im done with his ten year long plans that have more plans inside of plans and plans for the unplannable. plans. (or they just make makuta better)
    - hope every single little detail is not explained b/c that kinda killed latter bionicle for me, personally, when BZPers went and got every. single. small. little. detail. canonized and killed a lot of the fun imagination (ie: all the canonized "THIS IS WHAT THIS SIDE CHARACTER LOOKS LIKE OFFICIALLY" cuz no that's your headcanon and while it might be a cool one i have one i like more but can't use it anymore b/c people will cite BS01 when reviewing fanfiction featuring my artistic interpretation of that character kk)
    - hope romance isn't like, decanonized, 'cuz cutesy romance is kinda fun and it's my weakness
    - hope when it does go away again we dont get stuck with a bunch of BBBCers again
    - hope it catches on and brings more new creative people around who do new things and explore new horizons in their own creative ways (i also miss the activity of the short stories forum i lived in there for like a year or two)
    - idc if they have cheesy jokes everywhere, old bionicle did so (plus it's lego they do that)
    - ngl i hope the story team doesn't have extremely long prolonged interaction with BZP or other forums on the basis that it'd prolly lead back into canonizing everything (though a way to have dialogue in like a feedback sort of way would be pretty cool... but it'd prolly be flooded with questions/canonization requests so eh).
    - it'd be pretty cool if there were some gender non-conforming characters introduced, i'd personally really enjoy seeing that although im not really expecting it
    - ill prolly buy gali, kopaka and pohatu and maybe lewa (kopaka/pohatu otp now and forever; gali seemed like she had a poseidon thing goin' on which seemed cool and lewa was... one of the earliest sets i got, so)
     
    but in the end i mostly do hope i enjoy it again, can use it as a creative springboard on days when just stuck or dealing with writer's block, and yeah i know already i'll rant on a lot of stuff (most likely).
  13. Noxryn

    woop

    By Noxryn,

    okay!!!
     
    i had a pretty good day today altogether. at first it kinda sucked because i was in one of my... er, like... depressed? moods (not wanting to get out of bed, then spending too much time in the shower, that sort of thing -- with a lot of stressing over really dumb little things). but after playing Archeage with some friends of mine (we kinda just killed other players all day, like hanging out in Haranya and waiting for people to attack us before blowing them up, it was fun -- we also killed some of our own faction members, but shhhh), and after that i went out to do the laundry here at my campus for the first time (which was a massive, massive source of anxiety and stress for me all week) but i went with one of my roommates which made it easier, plus the place didn't have a lot of people -- a few girls just waiting on their stuff (who were all pretty nice, one complimented my shirt and i was able to have some light conversation with the other two who were upperclassmen).
     
    laundry took like 2 hours total (between taken machines, broken machines and waiting for stuff to adequately dry and folding stuff), but it's free so whatever.
     
    idk that experience really brought up my mood for some reason (well i also ate some trail mix with m&m's which might have helped, since chocolate releases endorphin iirc)
     
    i mean it probably sounds really dumb and weird but yeah, this is me.
  14. Noxryn
    Okay.
     
    I debated for a -long- time on whether or not I'd come out and say this on BZPower, or if I would simply quietly outfit my profile to make it obvious. Normally I'm more comfortable doing the latter, it's my Facebook approach (though there hosts family and real life people, which is another issue entirely) but since this is BZPower and I feel pretty comfortable here for the most part, I thought why not make a blog entry? It's a part of who I am, about my life, and about how I would like others to refer to me on the site.
     
    In real life I generally present myself as male. Not really by choice most of the time, but because that's what people will assume when they meet me and I'm far too nervous, shy and anxious to ever correct or try to assert how I prefer to be seen and referred to. I also, currently, don't wear the outfits and clothes I would absolutely adore to wear out in public, nor do I spend time with makeup (again, due to a lot of various insecurities and how my anxiety acts up). As a result of this, I've adopted to using basically either gender neutral terms (Ze/Hir/Hirself) or straight up female pronouns (She/Her/Herself) when online (I really want to get to the point where I am just as comfortable and confident IRL, but right now going to such lengths would likely cause me to... well, experience anxiety on a level were I'd be physically sick).
     
    I sift between gender expressions and identity: sometimes I'm completely comfortable being seen and referred to as male. Sometimes it bothers me, makes me feel upset and angry and depressed and I might go down a self-destructive road in a warped attempt to fix my feelings, or fix myself. The majority of the time I like ze/hir/hirself pronouns -- they aren't tied to a gender in the binary, but they share similarities to female pronouns and I prefer it for that reason (exactly why? I don't know, I really can't give anyone an explicit "this is the precise reason why I like this" All I know is I feel more comfortable, I feel happier, I feel depressed less and I treat myself better), however; as this is a website, there is the option to change one's gender on their profile. I've gone to the length that I will select a gender for how I feel in hopes people will notice and use the associated pronouns to refer to me at that point in time... rather than me making requests all the time.
     
    So, I guess this is... kind of my way of coming out as pangender?
     
    It's not exactly new to me, I've had these sorts of feelings for a -long- time (started early high school, actually) but I never had words to ascribe to them, never had any resources to peruse before, never was pointed in any direction for proper help with these issues, and was often ignored when I asked for help trying to figure all this out as it was causing me extreme distress and discomfort. I never mentioned them here in the past as I didn't have the words and I was terribly frightened of someone mocking me, or using it as a springboard to attack who I am. Or to use the entry, or wherever it was stated, as a way to drudge up their personal opinions on something they don't have any authority to talk about in such a manner.
     
    But, within the last... two? Years I've been able to find resources for nonbinary identities, I've been able to talk to some people about how I feel and get some solid help I wanted (namely just "Do other people feel this way? Is this some kind of phase I always hear people talk about? Will the feelings go away if I ignore them? Am I messed up, is there something wrong with my brain's chemistry or the chemistry of my biology? Etc..."). Of course I do want to take some of this to a therapist eventually, to receive more resources and assistance with other issues I have, but I'm still hesitant as I've never had a therapist I felt comfortable with (I basically just had one who only emphasized my fears constantly, which lead me to having near-breakdowns with them and I never wanted to see them again. So I'm hesitant about finding a new one).
     
    And ever since I started identifying as Pangender, and since I started to refer to myself with my own desired pronouns, I've felt so much better. I still fall into depression and other problems, but I try to combat it with exercise, eating better (well, trying to eat better... I... actually still need to eat something today :x) instead of unhealthier means (none of which I will explain, so don't ask).
     
     
     
    Annnnnd normally I don't try to post this level of personal thing on this blog, but... I mean, it deals with how I want people to see me and understanding myself, so I thought it'd be beneficial. Thanks for reading, I guess?
  15. Noxryn

    Guild Wars 2

    By Noxryn,

    i started playing it again after missing my character terribly (sylvari are still probably my favorite MMO species ever), but i changed his Cloud Strife hairstyle to the new longer one (sylvari are kinda bereft of long hairstyles sadly) but i'm sad the dark color i picked for it blots out the details (it looks so pretty when it's glowing, though!)
     
    haven't really dug into the new story too much, but already i like it's presentation SO MUCH MORE than the last Living Story season (it feels more like... a continuation of the main story, versus a sort of side plot event that you can ignore). I'm also glad they got rid of Scarlet, who i had such high hopes for as an antagonist last season but she was too... like, errr... she was too... stale? she didnt change much and she kept doing the same stuff over and over again :/ (had a killer outfit, though)
     
    idk if anyone here really plays it much, im in a few guilds (Friends of Mine which is literally just me and some really close friends, TIME which has a latin name i can't spell and was my friends' RP story thing, Our Sanctuary which is a LGBTQA+ safe space guild,, Official Mesmer Forum Guild, and then Eularity whom i refer to as celry (their tag is ELRY).
     
    im on tarnished coast with most of the NA RPing community, though im generally messing around in WvWvW b/c i can throw purple lasers at players there . (and i get T6 materials more reliably there for whatever reason and im getting kinda close-ish to my first Legendary... need like... 700g total but i have the most expensive components done [precursor annnnnd 100 charged lodestones])
     
    (tbh i want to play a largos so badly anet get on that)
  16. Noxryn
    i shouldnt be allowed to ship my own characters but i do and i wrote basically 4k words of the story they're in where they're pretty much lovingly picking fun at each other complete with "accident"-suggestive jokes (it might also be the opening shh)
     
    i dont want to edit it later b/c i know im gonna have to like, nix a lot of the dialogue and change it so it's not practically bleeding all over the pages that "kit ships these two and so should you and i will shove it down your face hole"
  18. Noxryn

    Writing and Programs

    By Noxryn,

    i got zenwriter again and i'm so happy i have it once more, i missed it so so much
     
    (my old PC's that had the free software died since then, harddrive one my desktop ended up getting shot somehow but i honestly dont mind the $10 price tag on it since MS Word is like $75 - 100~ ish).
     
    i just really love the music, how it saves and organizes work, switching the backgrounds and stuff (it makes me feel more creative which helps with creative writing)
  19. Noxryn
    i dont think i can make any sense of skirt sizes online
     
    will it fit, will it not
     
    who knows, buy it to find out
     
    will it flow in the wind like an oversized flag, or will it try to crush your internal organs
     
    only one way to find out
     
    (that guess will be seventy dollars pls)
     
     
     
    edit: also yes i will rant about this on all my blogs
  20. Noxryn
    i was messing around in this not-that-new game named Archeage, it's in Closed Beta/Alpha, and basically i committed a lot of in-game crimes and got sent to jail (i had a trial too) i spent my 36 minute jail sentence basically dancing the tango in front of other cells that housed other players.
     
    made me wish a lot that there was a game out there that would let male characters wear the female outfits and vice-versa
     
    dancing woulda been enhanced by a ballgown
     
    (i made a male elf with pink hair so)
     
    anyway that's all kit's been up to these last few days, ze's a really boring person i know
     
    also my hamburglar outfit:
     

  21. Noxryn
    i updated this here blog a bit, removed content blocks i deemed pointless or silly (well besides the rpg one though it's incomplete, old and every link is outdated since the old forums are gone but it's kinda too nostalgic or me to delete)
     
    also the pink's on purpose; pink is a pretty color and i will deck my online self (and offline self, though it's not a particularly flattering color on me -- purple is a bit more, i think) in it.
     
     
    almost removed the splash art thing (it's ancient... well, maybe three years??? four?? i lost those dog tags forever ago, but i got them more as a little bit of morale support for myself at the time so i kept the splash thing there)
     
     
    was tempted to put a selfie somewhere 'cuz it's a blog 'n junk and that's how i usually mark my blogs, but eeeeeeehhhhhhhhhh
     
    if i ever get the confidence to properly do myself up in makeup and find a flattering outfit (specifically like, a skirt i really like and a cute hoodie or something since idk, i tried such a combination of clothes once in Macy's while i was bored and i thought i looked quite pretty -- still kinda shocked they had things i could wear even if it fit somewhat oddly which was reason numero uno i didn't get them) then i will likely use it there (and prolly promptly update all my other ones haha)
     
    (usually the standard t-shirt/jeans combo is boring to wear, but i dont like wearing shorts since i can't wear leggings or stockings with them [kinda self conscious about my legs for some reason... like, how pale they are, i think? i dunno, it's weird])
     
    wow
     
    look at all these parentheses
     
    (so many)
     
     
    also 701st entry yay pretty
  22. Noxryn
    i havent made an entry since last year whoops
     
    but uh comparatively to last year this year's better (like, moving back to civilization) and i'm going back to college (kinda debatable if a week in one counts as being there in the first place haha) but at this college my old AP credits and stuff actually count so it's not wasted effort and money anymore (like i think i have half of my freshman year's worth of credits done on those alone? which is like i attended the full semester at the college here that i left due to anxiety, feeling unsafe/uncomfortable/isolated and without the resources they said they had, etc...)
     
    it's also downtown in denver which is a lot nicer than the last place (where it was in green bay, but it felt extremely... closed off and isolated from everything) and i'll be commuting from home since i don't do that well in dorms and because the dorms cost like twice the tuition (well more than twice since we get in-state still somehow).
     
    i'm completely uncertain about my major and will probably change it, probably to something in counseling or just English education or something (idk, lately i've been interested in teaching? like i really like and enjoy English, i just shied away from the degree since i kept getting told it's useless and i won't find a job etc... and that caused a lot more anxiety [i mean a lot more, like the "i'm having trouble breathing and need to hide somewhere" level] but it's what i'm really, actually interested in and thinking about it i wouldn't really be against being a high school teacher or something... like, i have social anxiety disorder, but i know i'm able to speak in front of classes most of the time and the biggest hurdle there would just be getting myself to... er, improve? in that respect). but i mean, teachers also get a lot of time off compared to some other jobs i was looking at, and that helps with the other thing i want to do and that's to write a fiction book (i actually have a lot of it planned out and i adore my characters and wrote the first line i'm gonna keep)
     
    and i mean if professors can write books upon books of stuff related to what they teach then surely, in a high school setting, it'd be easier to find the time to do that than if i like... worked in business, or finances, or law or something.
     
    plus like,i could make a meaningful impact on people, i'd hope, and hopefully be a positive and supportive person (since gods know i needed that). like, thinking about it makes me feel happier and like i'd be more fulfilled, rather than thinking about a future in marketing which just makes my stomach turn in knots since i'm not really the most creative person in the world and it feels like there'd be too much pressure behind it.
     
    whoops i rambled a lot there, but idk, never wrote it out before or talked about it so i guess it just sorta wrote itself
     
     
     
    but um yeah, right now a lot of goals are basically just to get all moved back, think of what i want to do with the rest of my life, and probably go back to full fledged therapy for social anxiety (and prolly go back on medication for it since i'm pretty sure it got worse, granted i went a week without any real meals back in college because i was too scared to talk to the cashiers... like i made two apples last 9 days, which wasn't really good on the health side since i feel like part of that contributed to my near breakdown in the art building which just unnerved me for existing).
     
     
     
     
    (oh and as for the whole "Bionicle's coming back" thing i keep hearing about: cool if it does an' all, i just hope the company would take some of the criticisms of the original series to heart and create a much more balanced cast of interesting characters. but idk if it is or what, but yeah, i just tacked this on 'cuz it's the hot buzz of junk)
  24. Noxryn

    Games! And things! Oh my.

    By Noxryn,

    Kinda bored so I'm choosing to write an entry (though none of you read it anyway so this is purely for my pleasure, ;D)
     
    SO, okay, here's a short list of some online games I'm taking part in along with some info on characters and junk within them... mostly for my own reference and organization, but hey, if you play one of these games and want to friend me or something, feel free! I don't bite. I promise.
     
     
     
     
     

    Guild Wars 2:


















     
    I play... too many characters and have used too much money on gems (okay, maybe sixty dollars over my year+ish of playing, so not too bad)... but, I have:
     
    - Leliel Thorgeirkin (Norn female warrior, I seriously can't play norn males... those shoulders... man, those shoulders. Although, people have made some amazing ones... I just... don't identify with hyper-masculine men, lol). She's also basically my like, super-independent-I-can-take-down-giants-on-my-own lady person because, like, it's fun to punch sexist characters in the face and break their jaws (with permission, but hey, it feels good).
     
    - Kitvael (Might name change him, since he's my sylvari mesmer and could possibly go Nightmare Court RPly... because, they're cool even if they're somewhat like angsty teens... but I mean, who could deny the name Kit the Dreamflayer?). He is the pinkest sylvari alive. With a glowing purple focus. With a rapier. With faerie wings. And a dress. Because... he's amazing and beautiful and butterflies everywhere.
     
    - Cein Ravenhart (Male sylvari, green and a necromancer who I use in WvW usually... namely in zerg fights because I use staff and three wells [Yes, all my utility skills are ground targeted large AoE's that I use to help and slowly kill people who stand in the fire]). I haven't really RPed with him, so his personality is up in the air.
     
    - Kastis Nightrose (Male sylvari guardian, super purple, was supposed to be Nightmare originally... but who knows anymore).
     
    - Vincent Escalier ( Elementalist: He's basically the best human I made, looks-wise, and like... he so pretty, omg)
     
    I have other characters, but these ones are the highest levels (all 80, aside from Leliel who is at 68... though I've been cheating and using the Tomes of Knowledge you can get in structured PvP games for her... because, let's face it, as a mesmer or a warrior... PvP is so easy and deliciously fun).
     
     
     
     
     

    League of Legends


     
     
     
    Total and utter newbie. But I've been playing with Morgana (Solo-Mid generally, but like, I do suck so... yeah, eh, whatevs). I've also been using Ashe a lot as she's free (same with Morgana this week), and I've been using Master Yi a little bit because slashing things. Like I said, I'm terrible and my friends totally carry me in this game (but they get to watch me die, so they ultimately win <3). Never solo-queued for anything because... well, hesitant since I hear so many things about the community at large and I know very little of the game itself (I play for fun, not really to win... honestly).
     
     
     
     

    Final Fantasy XIV






    I love this game, even if it has a number of flaws. I currently play:
    R'yndae Tia (Sun seeker miqo'te male, right now he's been leveling PLD because I wanted to try tanking and, so far, I find it pretty fun... much more fun and engaging than being a damage dealer).
     
    Kit Azrael (Essentially my main character, also miqo'te male [moon keeper] and I heal, generally, on him and... like with tanking, I find healing a more engaging and fun aspect of the game... currently I haven't been leveling with him so much since I level him with a friend).
     
    I'm not in a FC in FFXIV as of now, due to some disagreements with the leadership (Like, the overall community leadership of the FC, all of whom are focused in a different game for the most part). I'll likely end up part of a LGBTQA+ Friendly guild, and possibly some RPing LS's pending how well and comfortable I feel to do so.
     
     
     
     
     

    MAGICKA






    THIS GAME. OH MAN. THIS GAME.
     
     
  25. Noxryn

    masqueradey

    By Noxryn,

    i want to write the undercover masquerade scene
     
    but to get there i need to write the other five billion scenes orz
     
    (and my laptop is messed up and i hate typing in my room because it's so secluded from the world... and zenwriter doesn't exist for surface tablets)
     
     
    and also cuz i wanna stick cein in a ball gown he'd be adorbs.
     
     
     
     
     
    (though i kinda like how it's starting the whole chain of events beginning with an injured human-appearing dragon floundering into cein's place of work b/c when that happens you know life just got interesting)
×
×
  • Create New...