If I'm out of "own" ideas, I will now resort to drawing fanart. After all, any practise is helpful. :3 Let's see if it helps overcome the current art blocky struggles...
I've been here for quite a while now, hm? Don't regret it, though. I really like this place. Originally wanted to do something, but alas, Uni's got me busy, sadly.
Figured I could actually post some art again, after all it has been quite a while since I last sat down to scan something (oh the joys of traditional art...) Top left was drawn after watching a documentary about South Korea, where they shortly touched on an artist who creates traditional masks; super-wonky because it was drawn in the lab in between measurements. ^^' The other two are some more thoughts on the whole 'more robotic Bionicle designs'-concept. Also been drawing the occasion
Yeah, so, I'm back from the annual two-wweks-without-internet vacation. Which was all very nice and relaxing, and I've almost overcome the incredibly stressful period that was July. C: How has everyone been in the meantime, what did I miss out on?
Remember when I said that now there are holidays and I should have more time? Well, what I didn't mention (because I think at that point I didn't know yet/hadn't decided) that I would go to uni and work on my master thesis in July (aka, now). And what I certainly didn't know was that I would also start a small job in parallel. It's nothing huge, some other phd-student asked me whether I'd like to do some measurements instead of her, with payment, of course. I thought it would be nice to gather
On friday I had to give this presentation in the relativistic quantum information exercise course. And I wanted to be on time just once. So in the exact moment where I wanted to leave the house, a thunderstorm broke lose. Literally. That. Moment. Thunder and lightning right above our house. I ended up writing to the professors (and my partner for the presentation) and getting there 30 minutes late because I couldn't leave the house earlier. Ironically I made it to the presentation just in ti
...my last blog entry is from April? That's a tragedy. :/ Anyway, where have I been - mostly uni stuff, my thesis is taking up a huge part of my time. Also, I don't really know what to talk about, so, thus the silence. I am sorry. (heck, over the course of the semester I even got up earlier than I normally woukd so I coukd cram in some time for solving exercises for that one course because time would not suffice otherwise. There really was a lot to do. :/) But now with the holidays coming up
Yep, yesterday was my birthday. Ultimately I feel just the same, but that's okay. I really did not expect to wake up differently just because another year has passed.
^ that was me throughout the entirety of march; there was so much new stuff to process when starting with my master thesis (sorta? idk it's all weird) that I had hardly any ressources left for anything creative, including drawing. Hence the small scribble you see above; that was pretty much the most I could actually get done. :/ It's better now, though. Also because of the easter break; those two weeks will be used for creative stuff as well as relaxing. c:
I haven't yet found a 100% fool-proof way of dealing with this terrible anxiety-ish feeling that builds up slowly over the course of a few hours. But, when it is connected to procrastinating stuff I am feeling scared of (small things like an email to order some components for the lab. I've never done anything like this before! This is some real grown-up, business-y stuff and that's kinda creepy.), tackling those issues sooner rather than later at least stops it from getting worse. :/ Because t
There I was, innocently browsing GD, when I suddenly came across this one revived topic. 6 years old. And I had posted in it. :> Nothing ever tops being confronted with your way younger self! But I guess I mean that in a more positive way than one might assume. After all, it's nice to see that my English has actually improved a lot over the years. I've learned to express my ideas more clearly (seriously, younger self, get to the point already!). Use shorter sentences sometimes. Opinion-wi
had so much work to do - but! I sorta started with working on my master thesis, so that's a plus? Still all weird and new, and of course the first thing I managed to do was accidentally hit myself in the face with some equipment. :> I'm a natural!
Finally finished the last exam from the previous semester... whew. That was a lot, but at least now all I'll have to do will be exams from the current semester, so that leaves more time for working on my master thesis, which is something I might start with at some point this week? Overall I'm relieved now though, because I got another large chunk done.
aka I am currently fiddling around with a fractal generator and it's glorious. I mean, look at it. I could spend hours with those things. Also, at this point I am only still learning how to use the generator effectively, and I am loving the results already.
Because I should report on positive things too, I guess. (don't expect anything huge, though. ^^') The anxiety attacks seem to be containd again for the moment, that's a real relief. Stress levels are slowly dropping again too, as indicated by my dreams returning to their more vibrant state (for some reason, those two things are connected. don't ask me why.) Also, I am beginning to feel more comfortable within my own skin again, so those diet changes* surely did a thing, finally. (I had gai
I mean, I do have to prepare for a bunch of exams, but not having to leave the house every day is actually nice. Art-wise, today was even a good day, so hopefully thing will get better now? Ah well.
might have to give a poster presentation tomorrow - or next week. idk. Anyway, comparing my poster to the other submissions, and with some distance in time, my own poster does not look as terrible as I first conceived it to be. :> (okay, it's kinda minimalistic. and maybe has less text than some of the others.) oh yes, tomorrow's also the seminar I had to exit last time ^^ that's a different one, though. thankfully. still, feeling kinda uneasy about tomorrow.
Today, for the first time ever, I had to halt the presentation I was supposed to be giving at about half of the time because some question from the professor threw me off so much I had the choice between a) staying there and crying (!!!) in front of the whole room or b) excusing myself and exiting the room. FUN. (I chose option b, obviously. could not stop the tears. that must have looked awful.) And then they closed the lesson meanwhile, because the other speakers had already taken up way to
so tomorrow I have to give yet another talk, this time on the Laplacian Demon, which is nice, but in a more humanistic approach (or is it 'liberal arts oriented'? idk I am kinda lacking the vocabulary here...) which is a bit annoying as I'm not used to that sort of perspective. Ah well, broadening one's horizon is always a good thing. A part of me wants to play the "I don't know much about this as I am from the field of physics, not philosophy"-card, but that's strategically wrong, because rea
sorry for the inactivity (again?) - anyway, my sister's got a broken wrist since yesterday, and that's kinda more important than internet stuff. I just hope she'll get well soon.
