Repeating my mistakes
Welp. It seems I just don't learn. Recently I confessed to a friend that I had romantic feelings for them. I did it because they had been expressing feelings of loneliness on their social media, but also because keeping it secret had been weighing on me. Anyway, she hasn't taken it well.
I should have known better, because I've made the same exact mistake two other times. I've just been lucky enough the other times to be able to recover from them—the first time, my crush's girlfriend took pity on my awkward teenage romantic notions and helped me to atone for my mistake, and the second time my crush was a good enough friend already that it was water under the bridge afterward.
But it's not like that this time. My friend is now even more anxious than ever and I don't know if things will ever go back to the way they were. And all because I was too selfish to consider all the possible effects my confession could have on her, too impatient to wait for her to be in a situation where she wouldn't be so emotionally compromised, and stupid enough to let myself think one of my few good friendships might be better as something more.
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