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Why I Will Not Amount To Anything Ever


Phyoohrii

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Because I don't care.

I don't care whether I win or lose.

I don't care if I'm successful in life.

I don't care about people.

I don't care about the world.

I don't care about my future.

I don't care about my past.

I don't care about now.

I can go on with things I don't care about.

But I won't.

Because caring is a two way street.

The world doesn't care about me.

People don't care about me.

And I don't blame them.

Why would you care for something that doesn't care for you?

I blame myself for this.

I created this uncaringness.

And I have nothing to offer.

I am not skilled at anything.

Nor will I be.

I cannot see myself in 10 years.

Or 5.

Or 2.

Or 1.

I can't see myself doing anything.

Or being with anyone.

I can't see myself wanting to do anything.

Or be with anyone.

I don't care for life anymore.

But I do care about death.

It is not an option.

It is never the right path to take on free will.

It never should be.

So the torturous boredom and uncaringness continues.

And there's nothing I can do about it.

I'll face it alone.

 

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Guest The Captain

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That entire entry could have just been summarized with a simple emo emoticon. That's what we need.

 

And dude, have a cookie. ;)

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And then some cute chick walks into your life and BAM! Instant caring.

 

Ok, maybe not.

: p

 

Hey, I still don't know what life's about and all either.

And yet there's still "immoral" areas I won't go, even while not supposedly caring.

 

Weird stuff.

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Hey, look at the bright side: not caring gives you the perfect excuse to never achieve anything or take a risk in life. You're safe from any kind of judgement behind your impenetrable wall of not caring. Nothing can have an impact on you, and no one can expect you to have an impact on anything else. Isolation sets you free -- free to be miserable, sure, but still free.

 

It's an interesting place to be. Not what I'd choose, but it's a valid choice all the same. What can you learn from being there? That's the question that begs to be asked: What am I learning from this?

 

Good luck.

 

-BC

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Geez, I was trying to find a possible entry I made in August last year, and I stumbled across this entry. I cannot believe I made this entry. :P

Heh, within six months most of that is now wrong, awesome.

 

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