Don't Attack Me.
Don't.
You can attack my opinions, you can attack my actions.
But don't attack me.
It was a harmless rant, people. It's my blog and I think I'm allowed to let off some steam at the end of the day within it's boundaries. After all, there is nobody else in this house or any friend I could call up that could listen to me ease an irritation about an online children's site without being laughed at. I just wanted to blow off a bit of anger that had built up over the course of a long time.
And suddenly I'm finding somebody I don't even remotely know sticking my faults in my face with harsh words in front of everyone else to see.
You guys think I don't know? You guys think that I'm some egomaniacal airhead who thinks that I'm some sort of God who thinks his words fall on the ears of the deaf? No, I'm not.
A jealous God, maybe.
Do you think I am blissfully unaware of myself?
Of course not. In fact, I'm so self-concious that I can't stand it.
This wouldn't have been such a big deal if it wasn't for the fact that someone had to take it to a higher level and attack the very flawed traits that unfortunately make up my foundations as a person. You don't even know me.
Being told that I'm being unreasonable is one thing.
But having a personality mirror shoved in my face in front of others when I already know what the ugly thing looking back at me is just humiliating. I've looked into that mirror before and hated what I saw- please, don't make me have to see it again in front of others.
Trust me, I wouldn't be making such a big deal of this right now if it hadn't seriously hurt my feelings.
I know it's the internet and it shouldn't be taken seriously. But when the only people I get to talk to and community I get to be a part of on a daily basis are over the internet because of circumstances in real life, it can become serious. Serious enough that when someone just starts rattling off a list of faults about you -that you already do your best to try and avoid and work around them- out of the blue, it can really upset me.
I know you might not have been trying to do harm, but guess what- you did.
Trust me on the fact that I know you were right- but to do that so blunty in front of others is just unbearable for someone like me. If you have to do it so badly, do it over PM. Otherwise, just leave me alone.
Thanks for anyone who bothered listening or tried to understand. I feel a tiny bit better now that I talked that off.
I'm getting off now.
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