So all the hype and hoobla of me going to Berklee is dying down. Good - I haven't been giving that much thought, anyway, because I've been running from school to school, placating kids and admonishing kids - all in a day's work.

But last night brought the whole incident back into thought.

I had a really 'bad' dream about Berklee.

I was already in Berklee. In fact, I was in a classroom in Berklee, doing a proficiency test or interview - it was not very clear. What I did know was that a really rotund Caucasian teacher was standing in front of me, while I was writing on some paper.

I looked up at him. I asked him, "Why am I here?"

He looked at me quizically.

I continued, "I mean, do I really deserve this? Did I really get in by my musical ability and not because my parents had a big pocket?"

He replied, "The Admissions and audition managed to get you in here. There's nothing to worry about."

I started crying. I really started crying, in front of the lecturer. "Why? I still don't know! It doesn't feel right!"

Cue a sudden transition. I was walking out of the classroom or audition room, and there was a table near the entrance. It was giving out a book, an 'Insider's Guide to Berklee' kind of book or something, with blanks to fill at the first page. I found many books filled, flipping through them all. The lady manning the counter looked at me and said, "I'm sorry, but we don't have any more copies."

I managed to dig through the stacks and found one untouched book (with its pages printed on recycled paper, meaning the other side had Chinese characters printed behind it) in the stack. I took it with me and walked off.

Cue another sudden transition. I sat down somewhere, and began to read that book. I started filling in the answers to those blanks, and my head began to swim.

Cue waking up because the alarm went off.

I don't know what triggered the dream. Really. And I don't know about interpretation. Maybe I'll have an online look at it, but I still won't trust it. The dream feels weird to me. It feels like a premonition to something to come.

Hmm.

-<dd>