Give yourself a slight smirk, like you, and only you, know what each of my entries are truly about. Imagine a male voice with soft, baritone speech, tripping over his own mouth, and a horde of inflections added to the mix.

Whenever you think of it, always associate it with a joking manner, as though the entry wasn't serious.

Congratulations! You're halfway there.

Now, realize that the owner of the blog isn't who, or what, you think he is. He's not better, or worse, simply different. He'll never get his point across, and yet say everything he means to. He probably won't laugh with you, nor will he find anything you say, or even HE says, to be worth anything on here. If he met someone who had a clear goal in life, and could express that goal, and was a very artistic person, he might remember them fondly in the future, always wanting to see them again, but not really making effort to.

This person, while not actively seeking friends, knows and learns people just for the joy of their company. He will never try to hurt you, nor is he meaning to look at you or act in that way, unless all of these feelings collide. He will only hurt you if you hurt him. And you'll probably have to find out what that is on your own.

BACK TO NORMAL

See, I've noticed that I tend to horrify whoever I'm talking to whenever we get into a deeper level of speech. Trying to connect, merely for the friendship involved, tends to reveal certain facts either party would not enjoy. Only the opinionated break a friendship based on little differences.

For instance, I'm an Atheist, and my friend is a Christian, and yet we've been friends all of our lives, completely knowledgeable of the other's beliefs. We don't try to change each other.

And another thing, why do we tend to cheapen conversation? This one group of people I find myself around always talk about the useless things.

No wonder I'm quiet around them... then again, it could be the social ineptitude. I always confuse rampant narcissism for being socially backwards, and vice-versa.

ANYWAY, that's how you read my blog. With pessimism?