When I think of words to describe myself, I try to think of truthful answers. Respectful, Honorable, Fair, and whatever else may come to mind. Of course there are also negatives. Some say that I am negative myself, and may have a tendency to complain. Fair enough. Close friends and family also tell me that I don't give myself enough credit for my accomplishments and achievements.

Why? I feel that if I took too much pride in my success it may lead to awful things. Also, some say that I don't deserve what I have been given. I can't really do anything but to feel a bit discomfort in regards to that.

I also have a great hatred for my jealousy. Jealousy for those who have great talent, are successful, and who are loved by many. I'm even jealous of my friends, which is an awful thing to do. I then tell myself of all the good things that have happened to me, and the gifts given to me by life.

Lets use this blog forum as an example. Right now, I see myself as a serious person, maybe not. I can't think of any funny things to post, I don't have any wonderful poems or fancy artwork to post, or have snazzy comments to say. So I post my opinion and things that have happened to me. I feel so blaned and generic. It makes me feel like I'm being dumb just having a blog in the first place.

I'm not trying to be depressing. This is just what happens sometimes when I, or even others are in deep thought.

That's about it. Thanks for reading.