Because it's a beautiful album and it took me years to realize it.
Hey you! out there on the road Always doing what you're told, can you help me Hey you! out there beyond the wall Breaking bottles in the hall, can you help me Hey you! don't tell me there's no hope at all Together we stand, divided we fall.
I thought nostalgically of you today, so I thought I would stop by to say hello. I hope you've taken advantage of your summers! (:
We're having issues at home - the breadwinner had to resign earlier this summer. We are drifting in the land of unemployment and uncertainty and are looking at moving. It really is a bunch of question marks. But we will make it through okay.
Also, for those that knew my sister - her one-year anniversary was a couple days ago. She's all moved out and out-of-state and enjoying life with her husband. It's crazy!
I don't know; my summer's been kind of boring, hahah.
But hey, how are you all? IIRC Brickfair was this weekend - I hope you all had fun. Tell me your summer adventures and the songs of your hearts! Or just what song is stuck in your heads. Whatever works! o7
pssssssst killer queen has been stuck in my head for a week
But uh, okay, since I know there are other aspies wandering around the blogs: Are you able to feel when you're getting overstimulated? And what do you do to get yourself calmed down again?
I get very, very irritable and upset, kind of like the feeling you get if someone pokes you with a stick and doesn't listen when you tell them to stop. I just haven't found good ways to get myself back to a calm state. So I'd like to hear what other people do.
The world is not beautiful, but that in itself leads to its own sort of beauty.
Humans are far from perfect and shall always do as humans do, but in their own ways to deny, defy, or even reach for their own perfection, they shine as the phenomenal creatures they really are. To embrace both strengths and faults as just things that are.
I think that's a pretty beautiful thing.
Life has been difficult right now. It hurts. It's hard. One might say it's been ugly from time to time.
But you know, I'd rather it be ugly for the time being. That just means there's something ready to shine underneath.
So this time next week I will apparently (hopefully) have a diagnosis of either Asperger's syndrome or PDD-NOS (atypical autism) along with an anxiety disorder that I can never catch the proper name of. This has been 3 and a half months of doctor visits and like years of awkward and mistakes and horribleness in the making and I am still not sure how to feel about it.
I mean, being autistic on any level doesn't change who I am or anything. I'm still me. But it's like... a question on everyone's mind of "why didn't we really take care of this sooner?" My sister especially. She worries about me often.
But yeah, that has been on my mind for a while. I am a boat floating forever on a sea of uncertainties and flaily useless panic. Glub.
(This has been a totally quality blog entry of worrying from Nik, you guys can move on now.)
I finally have a bass guitar in my hands for the first time in almost 2 years, Ibanez left-handed 3/4, and I am playing Day Tripper like it was only yesterday.
We're just getting the furthest tendrils of it here at home. Lots of wind - some of the gusts are already knocking power out and ripping shingles off of roofs. But it's not horrible.
There's lots of family in Point Pleasant and Atlantic City (some of which we haven't had contact with) so we're glued to the phones and the weather reports especially with the eye of the storm over that part of NJ right now. So it is basically a super fun day today.
East Coast members: bunker down and stay safe, you guys. o/
Nik's summer, in condensed form: Lots of sleep Lots of rainbow cupcakes Lots of playing of the piano Got a new dog! Chocolate lab - he's a sweetie. There was a wedding in there somewhere as well. My sister looked gorgeous and she's very happy with her new husband. Had to drop my last semester of college, but I'm okay with that. My credits aren't going anywhere. Got screened for GAD and high-functioning Asperger's. And everyone proceeded to wonder why we didn't do this like 5 years ago. This is still a work in progress. (I was also screened for ADHD, which was ruled out - be proud of me, Becca, I actually bothered to ask!) Played way too much minigolf. Rewatched Legends of Metru Nui more times than I can count.
I guess that final one is what made me roll back on here for a little bit, hah. Hi BZ, I missed yooooou. I also missed Vakama. But I think I missed you a little more than Vakama.
Some little scout must have found something yummy in our kitchen, because we now have hundreds of ants swarming through all of our front windows both upstairs and downstairs.
EEEEEW. >.<
They're kinda cool to watch, though~ I can't really decide whether to be disgusted or just curious... XD
Nice weather + How to Train Your Dragon + girl scout cookies + drawing + learning a new game + making new friends at my new job + my brother making me laugh a lot + my kitty = a good kind of night.
Hopefully some decent sleep will actually happen tonight (I haven't had a restful night's sleep in months). That would make it an even better kind of night. ^.^
Very tired, very sick, typing out lots and lots and LOTS of PMs (to the senders: please stop sending them... I'm getting to them as fast as I can and you all have gotten your point across >.<), have to plan out a whole bunch of projects, unpack my clothes and wash the smell of cigarette smoke out of them (our neighbor on vacation smoked a bajillion boxes a day and it came up through the vents), work on forms for school, dig out some medical equipment and maybe take a nap.
Oh and I have to find the little insurance slip cause the post office mangled my shipment again... third time! Dx At least I got insurance for it this time but I can't find the little slip of paper anywhere...
I have come to the conclusion that working on something at 2 a.m., no matter how important that something is, does nothing but wither out the back portions of your brain. Or at least your eye sockets. Then you wake up the next morning and look at what you did and you see all the mistakes or typos and hypothetically facepalm yourself a million times.
At least that's what happens to me...? I make lots of mistakes in the earl morning. >.<
Time for sleep, yes~
Kitty and I wave goodnight. :3
...remind me to take a picture of the kitty sometime... XD
Back from my vacation. It's freezing cold and I'm really really sick, but I'm alive at least. =v=
To the bajillion people that sent me various PMs while I was gone... yes I've read them all, I owe people apologies and explanations... I'll get back to you ASAP.
Frantically trying to finish a few art projects that are due tomorrow evening on top of one that just got destroyed in the mail on the way to its owner. *scribble*
But I've got oreos and milk. *nomnomnom*
So the frantic just got a little less frantic and a little more sweet. ^.^
Anyways!
*SCRIBBLEMADLY*
I'll post the pictures if I live to tell the tale. I've got so much to get done!
The house smells like roast and bread and cheese potatoes.
It might be stressful and crazy and emotionally exhausting here otherwise, but I like it when the house smells of good food. ^^ I'll take endorphins when I can, even if they're coming from good food smells. XD;