It's a bummer to hear "all hope" ending, but I cant blame you. Just do whatever you think is best. And I'll be waiting for that last chapter of light and shadows...
To be honest, when I was younger, I didn't even remotely think of these kinds of things, just kinda thought everything would last forever. Things may get better, maybe worse, but I think that we can change those types of things.
My brother is probably the greatest headbanger of all time He's a punk rocker and hair down to the middle of his back. He can keep it up for minutes at a time, lol. I don't know how he does it!