Okay. I wanna say sorry.
Sorry for not telling you where I have been the last days.
On the weekend we went to our holiday "residence" (seriously, big old house with big garden in the middle of... nowhere. No internet, no telephone but lots of wood and trees ).
Yesterday I got hit by a horrible headache, and therefore could not get on.
So. Now you know.
Seriously, whenever I dig up all those old entries where I do nothing but telling you how sad I am and these received the most replies... and then the entries about these entries... and the entries about all that sadness in my blog.
Why?
What made you
act this way?
What made you grow
so cold?
So hard, so mean.
I've never seen
you that way.
oh why, just why?
Was it something I said
or did not say?
Something I forgot,
something I did not?
I wake up
in the middle of the night
wondering if
my decisions were right.
What made you so hard,
so cold.
If I'd been told before,
would I have been to late,
would there be more?
~~~~~
Yes, I am worried. I know, it's not my best poem. I apologise, I am so
Good luck has never been my friend
I've always been the fool
Please don't follow shadows of mine
'Cause the time is running out for me
I walk in the path of a misfits blood
No compass can stare my way
No light at the end of the tunnel
And time is running out for me
No gold at the end of the rainbow
No high hopes, dreams deceive
Follow me
The trouble seems to always wanna
Follow me
It has let me down so far so why don't you
Follow me
The trouble seems to always wanna
Follow me
Haha, I think I've overcome my artist's block. At least the inspirations are flowing back.
How it happened?
Well, my mum showed me a new band. PAIN they're called. Dunno whether you know them - but hey, I'm just so inspired, I hope I'll get my hands on pencils and paper soon.
So, expect to see new stuff from me soon.
I hate sports at school.
Yesterday we had to run all the time.
Today my legs hurt like... I dunno, it's horrible. Sitting down hurts. Standind up hurts. Walking down the stairs hurts.... Blarg. >.<
What is the fun in scaring yourself?
Why do people make 'n' watch horror movies?
And WHY do I always listen to songs that make me see pictures I'd never want to see?
lol. I dunno why I always do stuff like that, but at least it gives me many ideas
Eeh. Long story.
I was walking from the bus station towards school and afternoon art class, when I suddenly saw someone who had been in my class last year. (The one with the dark blue eyes I wrote about a handfull of entries ago...) He saw me too, and...
I dunno, he went all like "Squee!" ran up to me and hugged me. O.o
Second time this week when I was all like "O.O". Erm.
Feel amused.
Ah well. In our class there are two new girls. Religion is not to be discussed on BZPower. -B6
And of course my 'best friend' said "Nevermind her, she's a wuss". Bah. ("Best friend" because we got along for 6 years now. She enjoys annoying me - and I do that to her as well.*)
Hee hee, that was the first time in my life someone asked me that.
Then, on the way home, I always have to go past a playground. There were a lotta people with their kids today - and some of them gave me odd looks, th
Well we got no choice
All the girls and boys
Makin all that noise
'Cause they found new toys
Well we can't salute ya
Can't find a flag
If that don't suit ya
That's a drag
School's out for summer
School's out forever
School's been blown to pieces
No more pencils
No more books
No more teacher's dirty looks
Well we got no class
And we got no principles
And we got no innocence
We can't even think of a word that rhymes
School's out for summer
School's out forever
School's
... this time to something entirely different. I don't know why I did so, but I'll have to keep this name for 45 days now... =J
You may still call me Taka if you want to.
.... it was awesome.
I love Italy, you can find so much stuff with skulls and spikes there <3
my mum got me an awesome T-shirt with the Grim Reaper on it, along with a necklace, a spiked bracelet, a belt with a skull... yush.
But, I have to say, I really missed you people.
What's new with me:
~ I gotz new dark stuff (yay)
~ I finished chapter 7 of my epic (which will be up soon)
~ I finally figured how I'll have my epic end
~ I have drawn a few things
~ Strangely, I've also d
Weird - now that the forums are back I feel the urge to pm/comment everyone whom I've met here... and that would be way too many, I fear.
So, if you didn't receive any pms/comments from me: I GREET YOU! Nice to see you again. All of you.
Yeah. So now I'm a life-time Premier. Woot. ^^
Also, we'll take my scanner with us, so I'll be able to enter AC17.
Last message from me for a week - see you, everyone. (though, it's actually not a week but 5 days =) )
... from Sunday to Thursday.
This is not my week in Italy, this will follow aftrerwards.
But on Thursday I'll be here, scanning my entry for AC 17 and posting it. Even though there's a high chance that I won't be here when the voting takes place.... ah well. ^^
EDIT: Just found out that today'S the 22nd No AC17 for me
EDIT of the EDIT: There's still hope
I just had to empty my pm folders, and what do I read there?
You have 756 out of 200 storable messages Or similar.
good that the anniversary week is still running - I don't know where I'd have put it otherwise...
BO-HOOO!
EDIT: Bought life-time Premium membership, so now it should be fixed. ^^
How do you chose the music you chose? What do you expect from music?
I enjoy listening to very emotional music, sometimes dark music, too. But what's most important to me: it should be a song that carries me away, into my dreamworld. It might not be a cheerful place there, but its beautiful. And it's the place where most of my creativity comes from. As well as my nightmares, but that's another story.
What fasinates me about sad music is that usually it brings me peace. It gives me time to so
I'm still not really believeing that the forums are back up and running... I bet I'll wake up in a few minutes
*waits*
Oh my, I didn't wake up, so it must be real! =D
... I feel so sorry now. I feel sorry for all those who requested drawings from me once. Why?
Well, I had them stored in a seperate folder (the pms), and since the Bzpower data crash didn't affect my pm inbox, I didn't care about it much.
But today? I looked into it to see what I still have to finish - and it's all cleared! There's nothing left!
Therefore: I deeply apologize for not being able to do any of my old requests. I feel so miserable now. ._.
