Ugh... I'm so tired.
Amanda doesn't like me. I've known that for over 2 months. She's the most mean and heartless person I've ever met. I'm too tired to go into the whole story right now. That's for a different day... night... whatever.
I'm just glad it's 3 more days till Christmas!
You are probably wondering what has happened between Friday and now. I gotta tell you: A LOT. You don't even KNOW. Stuff you won't probably believe. Lots of stuff. including stuff that happened on the weekend. There are a lot of text conversations in this entry. They will be translated to regular words for you to understand.
Friday
It wasn't exactly what I thought it would be like. Brent explained it to me like as if we were meeting Amanda and her friend at the corner next to the school. A
No. Unfortunatly I did not have the time to talk to her.
BUT
Guess what I'm doing at 7?
Today is the day of the Homecoming game. I met up with Brent, Andrew, and Cameron and Brent asked me if I'm going to the game. I said I don't know, but I'm planning on it. Then he said he was and...
Invited me to come with him, Amanda, and Amanda's friend (the one that was at Buffalo Wild wings telling her to go over to where I was) to the game.
I'm siked.
Yes. I talked to Amanda. Actually talked to her. Not just yelled her named. After 8 freakin' months It has been done. Wanna know how? Thought you would. Most of you will have to thank my now best friend in the whole wide world: Andrew.
After the past couple of days/weeks, Andrew has been telling me that he has been seeing her after school. I told him that, if he sees Amanda, to tell her to wait. The past attemt didn't end up right.
To be quick, I didn't change after Basketball (I needed my
This is not a "story" entry. Just some points I wish to address about Amanda. Also rant on things relating to the subject.
So. This entire thing has been going on for about 8 1/2 months. This is really pathetic. It should have been done, at the most, one week after it started! Sorry. Self pity is very bad for your health.
Why. That is the question (No Shakespeare quote intended). I'm… not really afraid. I'm just--- I plan things out, and imagine how they would play out. But when the moment
An... odd thing happened today.
Same routine (as always), until after school. I told Andrew (because he says he awlwats see Amanda afrer school) to tell her to just wait for me if he sees her.
I was outside wondering where he was, when I called him. I asked him what he was doing. With the reception inside the school being extremly bad, I couldn't hear what was saying. My mind just decided that he told her and that she next to him. I went inside and asked him what he did. He said that he
I'm Baaaaack.
This is an entry about the events of this week. This is basically what happened on Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday =
We're afraid to talk to each other so nothing happened.
NOW the interesting stuff was on yesterday and today.
Just so people don't get confused; Brent says he is friends with her (not the way you think).
Anyway, Thursday went like any other, except for the fact my teacher surprisingly showed one of my movies in photography ^^. After we ate lunch, I wa
WARNING: LONG ENTRY!!!!
This entry is going to talk about the events of last night, but before you think this won't be "interesting… You're wrong.
Ok, yesterday was Brent's birthday party (happy freaking 13th). We were going to see Eagle Eye, then have dinner at Buffalo Wild Wings (J), the go back to his grandparent's house to have a sleep over and play games and stuff.
The people who went are people mentioned in past entries: Me, Andrew, Trevor, and Chase. Along with Brent's brother, C
As you can, see I've changed my name to Amph (Thanks BioHero Codrex), and as you can see by the two blocks on your left that I'm changing my design.
Please still call me Amphilus or Amph.
I'm thinking about changing my name. But not too much. Just enough. I want to make it more robotic. Get rid of the "lus" at the end. Makes it soud too animal like. These are my current ideas:
Amphilus Prime
Amphitron
Amphicron
If you hsve any ideas for me, tell.
Nothing happened today. In the morning, I couldn’t find her. At lunch I found her, but she was with, almost all, of her friends. After school was weird. I was waiting on the front grass for while then I went inside with a friend because he forgot his textbook. I saw her there with friends, then she left. I went back to the grass to wait for Andrew. I saw her talking on her phone in a corner in the front of the school. I saw Andrew, and I had a hunch that she was leaving and volunteered to go che
Or at least said what I could. As she was getting into her car to leave, we were about 4 yards away from each other, I said -
Me: Amanda!
Her: *turns*
Me: I need to tell you something tommarrow!
The reason I didn't say what I needed to was that she was just leaving. If I said what I'm planning on, it would have taken 15 minutes.
Back to the main story, It didn't look like she was saying anything back (hey, what do I know? Without my glasses I cant see the important details of a pers
These are the events that occured on Friday and Thursday.
While leaving school on Thursday, Andrew pointed her out walking across the street towards the school. We went to see if I could do it. But then she just disapeared. We went toward the school where we saw these two kids we knew. Without my permission >_> Andrew asked them if they had seen her. They said:
Kid 1: Do you want to ask her out?
Andrew: No.
Kid 1: Michael?
Me: No... err.. Brent wants us to do it for him
Kid 1:
*Puts hands together* Well. I've got news today. Not really... good news.
First off, it seems that Amanda and Jackie are friends again. Great. More ways to ruin my life.
Now onto the unfortunate news. Today, Andrew said while he was in line buying something at lunch when she came up to this guy in line and hugged him and said "Hey cutie". Then I saw the guy sitting with her and her friends a bit later on.
Could mean anything. But, I'm still gonna try. If they're "going out" I'll fin
I just listened to it. It's... not... that bad. It's just... not great. The lack of use of the guitar in the beginning (before the main chorus) kinda made me loose interest. But believe me when I say Creeping in my Soul and Gravity Hurts were a lot better.
~/\mphilus
Do you think I'm boring? BESIDES the things about Amanda and my life. I'm talking about stuff like my movies, art, Bionicle, Transformers, etc. It's just that they don't get a lot of attention. I'm not mad, I'm just wondering.
Also, I'm trying to find my new colors and color blend for my posts and entries. I have thought of these -
Red and Regular Amphilus Dark Blue
Red and Gray
Regular Amphilus Dark Blue and Light Grey
Regular Amphilus Dark Blue
Lighter Blue
Dark Red
Just Black
S
Like the title says... *ahem* Transformers sucked BADLY. I felt like a nerd going to that thing. You know why? First off, I had to sit through Transformers: Beginnings (an animated prequal which I have seen). Also...
ME AND ANDREW WERE THE ONLY PEOPLE THAT WENT.
I'm serious. But, I don't think it's because no one wanted to go. I think it's because there was Cross Country, Football, and other meetings that night. And some people forgot the money. But I swear to God, that was the most BORIN
Let me tell you a little story. On wedsnady morning, I was talking to a friend during morning announcements (I do that once in a while). Anyway, all of a sudden I hear on the TV, "Do you like Transformers?" I turned around, "What?"
Today they are having a showing of Transformers in the auditorium. Andrew, Brent and I are going to see it (I just want to see it in a theater again and I want my friends to have the expeirence to see it like that too).
That's all I have for now.
Okay, I guess that last entry was a lttle... overuled. My problem is not talking to her, it's just, being rejected... badly. But,I know that's pathetic. Thing thing I hate the most is that on Thursday, it was the PERFECT time. She was alone, at her locker. No one around. No Friends. Not even mine. I still kick myself. But, trust me I'm trying, without looking suspicous.
Onto last week, I did not do anything. But, it was NOT like I was standing 7 feet away from her thinking "Should I do it?" Li
I give up. I can't take this. I'm seeing her with so many guys. All the time . Everyday, when I see her, I die a little inside. I'd rather not know, than hear the two guys in my Math class that hang out with her exchange comments about her.
I hope to the lord that I can do this today.
I also hope deeply hope that we don't do partners in life science, and by the offsite chance that I have to be her friend's partner. >< Awkward.
Bear with me, this will be long.
I take that back.
I didn't do it. I have a good reason why.
There are way too many people. She seems to have more friends. Some most guys, but not ones she'd be "with". Kind of like that girl you sit next to in a class and you make jokes and stuff, but you're not "Friends" or friends. Most of them, in height, come up to the middle of her neck ( ). I'm about 1'' taller/the same height.
Speaking of that, if would a good couple image, I'm the o
It Ends Tommarow
To start off with, the first day I did not see Amanda often. Only in the hallway once and after school.
On the third day, I went with my SS class to the library to check out my textbook. She was there too. She knew I was there too. When I was in line, I glanced at her face for a slplit second She saw me. Our eyes met (and I don't want to sound mushy) and..I felt something...
The fourth day (Today) was very... interesting. In Strings, I have her evil "midget" friend (her
