My Emotional Fall From Grace
As all of you know, I am insane. However, despite being eccentric and immature my entire life, my personality as a child is nothing like it is now. Something happened around the time I reached adulthood, which started my downward spiral.
When I was in Year 12, I was the most popular student at my high school. Everyone, students and staff alike, loved me, and I was happy. I also did Scouts for 12 years, finishing that same year, where I was never happy.
After I graduated from high school in November 2008, my sole focus shifted entirely to Scouts. As I stated in a previous entry, my group's leader was cruel. One of the biggest bullies I had to deal with. I don't know what I did wrong, but she started trying everything in her power to keep me from getting y Queen's Scout, one of the highest awards in Scouts. She would pile on work, she would tell lies about requirements for getting the award, and she all-in-all was a total (you get it. She was a bully).
She failed, and I got the award. However, her antics hardened me. I became cold-hearted, I became horribly stubborn (believing that if I could stop a tyrant like her and get my Queen's Scout, I could do anything), and my whinging worsened tenfold. I became but a shadow of my former self.
When I started TAFE, I took my cold-hearted self with me, including my whinging. That whinging made me an outcast, and I was bullied by my peers because of it. Because of this, not only was I unable to recover for a whole year, but I got worse. I became colder, and my self-esteem hit rock bottom. I sincerely wanted to tell the bullies why I was how I was, that I hadn't always been like that, but they had set me on ignore irl. They ignored nearly everything I said, even when I was trying to be nice to them, and they pretty much completely pretended I didn't exist. A day when they spoke to me, even when it was abusive, was a good day.
That year, the Pokemon Video Game World Championship series began, and Australia wasn't invited. Because of my new stubborn streak, I decided to challenge The Pokemon Company International about why we were, as I put it even then, banned from participating. They told me it was because it was still in its early years, and that Australia might be invited next year (making me the very first fan to find out about 2010's championships). After finally being told the latter after continuing to challenge what I was told, I finally backed down. In the end though, I had failed. Australia was not invited, and has still never been invited since. In fact, we got NOTHING for three years, until we got four local tournaments last year. After the incident, the acronym "VGC" (short for Video Game Championships) became a swearword to me.
By the end of the year I had practically reached the point of no return. And then LEGO made their infamous Announcement. THAT was the straw that broke the Kikanalo's back. As a result, to this day, LEGO has been forced to feel the wrath of a victim of deep corruption.
The emotional damage caused by my Scout Group leader and the TAFE bullies will never fully go away. However, if LEGO brings back Bionicle, I can finally begin to TRULY recover from my emotional scars. Even if they said it wasn't going to come back until, say, 2020, I would still begin to recover, because then I'd know when it would return, and I'd truly have something I can look forward to.
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