So apparently I have no decision in anything anymore...the marching band director from the high school came over the other day and made us do marching steps. I hated it. I found it stupid and awkward and geeky...that's not me. At all. So I told my mom that, said I kinda wanted to drop out. She went on about it all afternoon, all about how I'd love it and how it was important for colleges to see I was involved in something. Then she told me that if I dropped out of marching band, I had to do community service. I'm not going to work at a church. I'm not going to give back to this community - it doesn't give me anything. It's not who I am. I don't wanna pretend to be someone else for a college, and then for a job.

Honestly, the only thing that's ever interested me even slightly is music. The music I like, and not just any stupid marching music. I love to write my songs. I love the idea of the creative process of putting music to the lyrics. I love the concept of going across the country as a trio and playing that music, and talking to other people who love music, and other people who care about music as much as I do. It's not some stupid "I wanna be a rockstar" dream - I couldn't care less about fame. I just wanna make some music, make enough money to get by, and share that music with people who actually CARE about it. Is that really too much to ask? I'm definitely not interested in doing anything else.