Master Reidak

@Ngakunui: No, it's not painful. I won't touch it anymore, though. I'll have to wait a few hours for my parents to get home. @ToM Dracone: Not so worried anymore. Dad had his for a while before he had it fixed. But I'll still get it checked out as soon as I can. What a bother though, this while likely mean I have to stop Thai Boxing for a couple of weeks...

How will I know if I need it? I guess I should get it checked out.

I think I have a hernia. A little bump in the middle two of my abdominal muscles that I can push in, but it pops back out. Eep. My dad had one. It usually requires surgery. I haven't been in surgery before...

It falls under the 'stuff' category .

A good home gym is like, 1 grand. This is worth a bit over 1/3 that. You get what you pay for. It's okay, but some parts of it annoy you and feel unstable. It'll hold up, though. When I get my own place, I'll buy a really expensive one.

I bought my mate's old home gym. He paid $350 or something, I paid $280. Here's a picture. Oh, and I just realised it's a tad dusty . I'm off to clean it!

So sore! I worked out too much last night and now I can barely move...

Help! Randomness is invading my blog.

$600 please .

They're all expensive these days... but my mate is connected to some place in Melbourne that builds gaming desktop computers and I can get a pretty decent one for $600. I'd do that if anything.

What do you mean by the first phrase? I dunno about the laptop. Maybe if I get a better job and I have some money to spare . If I do get it, it'll be in a few months. Definitely don't have the money to spare right now B).

I figured out that I spent $430 AUD (which is pretty close to USD) yesterday and the day before. I bought... - $90 hood jumper - $30 hood jumper - $20 shirt - $35 shirt - $70 jeans - $10 DVD - Ong Bak (Muay Thai Warrior) - $55 of CDs: Lovecraft and Witch Hearts - Cradle of Filth OK Computer - Radiohead Ten Thousand Fists - Disturbed - $50 boxing gloves - $50 focus pads - $20 in sleeping aid pills and caffeine pills Which actually adds up to... yeah, $430 . Lol, if you're wondering why I bought the pills, it's because I'm just a fool . I saw them both and I was like, "What happens if you take one of each?". So I stupidly bought them both . But I actually do have trouble sleeping sometimes and the caffeine pills could be... fun. So yeah. I'm hoping to start Muay Thai (Thai Boxing). What fun. I've been working out a lot lately and people are noticing B). It's good because my parents bought my little brother a punching bag but it remains unused... now I shall take it over . So my life is kinda taking a turn. I'll still come on here and post. Oh, and if you've been following my blog you'll know about Rose... well she likes me again but I'm not sure... I'm still kinda hurt. Plus Emma and I are getting along a bit too well... . That's all for now.

Okay, I know I need to move on. So I'm trying. Just let me say, don't ever let this kind of thing happen to you. Don't think your partner is the 'one' and you'll be with them forever, even if it might be the case. Because 95% of teen romances are doomed (false statistic). The 'one' takes time to get to. I made the mistake of thinking she came early... Anyway, fate might sometimes be cruel, but it can be good as well. My cousin's cousin (NO, I am NOT related to her ) family friend recently broke up with her boyfriend and talking to her is making me feel better. Like we're in the same boat and all. And she gave me her number . I think she likes me... I just wish I could get over Rose first. Sigh...

I wanna start Muay Thai >.< . I talked to her. I need to move on... I know it. Hang on, I'll update my blog with what's happening.

It's not about finding things to take my mind off her. It's about either how do I get her back / how do I move on?

Hmm... I hate Big Brother...

I sure hope it does . But some things won't.

Amen.

I did want to start boxing or something...

So maybe you clicked here because it was in the list of blogs. Maybe because of the link in my signature. Whatever my mood seemed to be in that post was a mask. I'm a complete wreck. I'm going to be open here. You might know that I lost the love of the most important person in my life. I've talked to many people. They tell me to move on, but I can't. You need to understand that she was everything I had. My life is going downhill. I'm not doing well in school, my parents are either losing their jobs or losing their hours so we won't have as much money, my brothers are distant from me now and my friends could definitely be better. My grandparents are dying. I have a lousy job. What else do I have to look forward to in life? Maybe I'm well-known here, but not that many people actually talk to me... and my life can't revolve around BZP. Onto the person. Her name is Rose. Having her love me made everything else seem ok. I was more confident and had a better view of my life. Now it seems like everything is just falling down. I need her love again. She's the only person I ever wanted and I don't want anybody else other than her. I know there must be something I can say that will make her love me again... but what? I know BZP probably isn't the kind of place where I should be asking for help like this, but I'll keep asking whoever I can in real life. Out of those I have talked to, they're saying I'm very depressed and even *gulps* suicidal. No, I wouldn't do that. But I can't live with a broken heart. What do I do? Please don't suggest I'm saying this purely for attention. This is the deadly serious view I have of my life. I'm just giving you guys the opportunity to maybe say some things that might make me feel better. Or whatever. I need help.

I read that before you posted. At least someone knows how I feel. It just feels like nobody could possibly know how I feel , but I guess some do.

I can't just let go of her. She was my whole world. I talked to her, but didn't get anywhere. All she does is say sorry. I can't move on . I know I have to, but I just can't.

Wow. All the things she said to me... I never thought this kind of thing would happen. But it has. Now she doesn't want to be with me anymore. What did I do wrong? I am so sad. You have no idea. Nobody here could possibly know how I feel. They say good things don't last forever. I guess 'they' were right. Whatever.

Enjoy your time in Iceland! Hey... you stole my milkshake! I was wondering where that went! AND YOU DRANK IT UP? BLASPHEMY!

Hooray for free stuff!