every waking moment

Ditto

every waking moment

quite literally this

Yep.

Do you want to form a club that none of us ever go to because we're too anxious to go to it?

Yup, about two to three times a week, normally when I'm alone with my thoughts before bed.

Once I had a mental flashback of when my dog died and I stayed up until 5AM trying to focus on literally anything else to take my mind off of it.

This other time I had a nightmare where I was murdered by bigots I had the misfortune to know irl. Kinda put me in a sour mood and I don't think I went back to sleep.

lol I'm in such a good place right now

All the time.

Yeah.