I hate it when your life is super stressful and painful, then it makes you feel good for a little bit because some little things good happened...and then something happens and your back to feeling bad again. I feel like I'm on a Rollercoaster.
My life is so bumpy. ='(
I wish my family would stop hurting me verbally, stop ignoring me, stop pointing out all of what’s wrong in me and never commenting on what I do good...I feel so scared and torn up because of them. All because of them. And they don't understand, never understand...
I'm just so down because of that stupid math test...Yesterday my whole family was being loud and just stressing me out, and then during my math I got really sickish (Headache, dizzy, etc) So I went to sleep by accident for an hour or so...And because I was stressed, tired and couldn't think straight that day I didn't finish my math. Concluding I wasn’t allowed to go to Books-A-Million. That just made me feel even more guilty and stressed. I finally got the stupid thing done by 10:00 at night, and now today mom graded it and I got a B+. Good? I guess. But mom and dad made me feel so bad because I missed some problems and I went to slow...they just didn't get it!
...That might sound like a stupid thing to whine about, but once you add that with a bunch of my other problems and issues...it’s just a bloody disaster.
I really tried to have a positive attitude toward life and just get tough and move on, but I keep getting thrown into dirt constantly. And after awhile, I just get sick of hiding all the pain inside for so long. This is probably the first time I have ever been in this much hurt before and for such a long time too.
I just want life to go back to normal...if it ever was normal. >_< I just want my family to stop being so mean, I want my art and writing inspiration to come back, and for me to enjoy art and actually make myself believe I have a talent and not to worry if a picture is good or bad. I just want to enjoy life and get over this.
….I have to go finish school…Yeah I have to do a bunch of school today…No freedom and no summer break…You have to love this life.
EDIT: I forgot to say that my art topic died a few days ago(JMJ told me)...So yeah...That really got me down even more so I'm really considering quiting on the Bionicle art....
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