I am contemplating if I want to leave BZP.
Seriously.
I mean...I love BZP and of course Bionicle, but I just feel that my life which lately has been really rough on me and my family, and I have been less active, loosing the attention of my writing, art and even friends. It makes me feel so guilty that I can't reply to PMs as fast as I should be, but I dunno...
I am in a kind of emo mood about this; I am fine, just not about this.
My artwork is slacking, I don't write as much as I want...But of course, both of those so called talents never were that good.
Also, I feel less popular....Wait; don't give me those odd looks, I mean, yes that is very self centered to say. And I don't mean to say it like that, I guess I got used to being treated so nicely by a lot of members, getting drawn a lot and in the spot light, but when I kind of went through those fazes of disappearing, I feel like I have hurt several peoples feelings and other members kind of took over my spot.
...Dude, I sounded really self centered there, I am sorry, but truth is, I am jealous.
Even if I got active again, my art went back up, I still don't think everything could go back to normal, half of me feels I should just force myself to finish some art/etc, and I might feel better...But I don’t know, I don't think everything would go back to normal.
Ugh, so stressed, so tired, I want my life to stop being so frustrating....
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