The Fallen Amph

Meh.. just the same nervous,shy stuff. But I think I'm gonna attempt something this week. But, is it a good or a bad thing where a girl doesn't really hang out with guys? Just wondering... as she doesn't.

I'm a bit excited for Monday. In media class, me and a friend get to leave class to go on location to film interviews with actors/crew members of our school's current plays. I know that sounds a bit dull, but it's MUCH more entertaining than staying in class and do basically nothing. Also, credits on the morning announcements are always good.

Might as well get onto this: yes, I've moved on to someone else. Well this started about a month ago (Mid-January): So "new" people aren't confused: Amanda was this girl I liked (which I don't anymore) for about a year, in which a lot of events regarding the both of us have happened, to know more, just read some of my past entries. To make things clear, I'm just going to start using names straight-up. Since the beginning of the year (7th grade, not 2009), I've been mid-friends/aquantinces with this one girl (Kaylee) in my Math class, who has sit near me a couple times (but it's kinda faded over time). I have been mildly attracted to her friend (Lauren), who's in my Math class too, since the biginning of the year too... mildly... But I didn't think much of it since I had Amanda on my mind at the time. Then in, I think Mid december, I was assigned to sit next to Lauren, with Kaylee sitting behind us (and one of Amanda's guy friends was sitting next to her. I thought sitting near him would be wierd, but actually, he's a cool dude ). Over the next couple of weeks (nearly every class) Me, Kaylee, and Amanda's friend, engaged in conversation. With Lauren coming in occasionally, but as I've learned by sitting next to her, she's a shy person, doesn't really talk much. It's not like she's "scared" of everyone. She's just not as outgoing as Kaylee or Amanda. She didn't act like she liked me much, but as time moved on, that kind of changed. Just to put it out there (for other parts of this entry), near the time of finals, I made a joke where when our teacher said something, I finished it silently by saying "You're basically screwed" (Example: Teacher; "So if you don't bring a pencil to finals-" Me: "You're basically screwed."). After one of those times: Lauren; "*tiny giggle* you're basically screwed ." After the semester ended (about a month ago), we got a new seating chart, and I was about as far away from Lauren as physically possible, in the classroom. Now this where I started officially liking her (meh... to a degree): One day, they were writing notes to eachother across the room from me during class. After a while, they balled up the peice of paper they were writing on (so they could throw it) and tossed it over to where I was sitting... so here comes the diagram >< Prepare for "Analyst Amph" Girl 1 Girl 2----Girl 3 Guy 1 -----------X------------- Girl 4 Me-----Guy 2 Girl 5 OK, that's the seating arangment. The "X" is where it landed. A bit after that, Kaylee said to Girl 2, "Give it to... *Something I couldn't hear quite clearly*... (Some name that ended in "L" [i. e. Me, Michael])". Now, all of the people sitting in that area don't have an "L" ending name (except for the girl she was talking to, but why would she ask her to give it to herself?), but before the girl could pick it up, the teacher saw. Now, this guy is a real joker, and passing notes isn't new to him. He came over and picked it up. Everyone was basically yelling, "Read it in front of the class!". Also, Kaylee and Lauren were blushing like mad. Kaylee was giggling, but Lauren was blushing with a "shocked" look. As I said, this guy was a joker, he read it in front of the class... to himself. [sarcasm] HAHAHAHAHAHAHA VERY FUNNY!!!!! [/sarcasm] .... Sooooo... yeah. I know it doesn't mean that they/she likes me or anything, but... ya gotta think, wonder. But then the next class, I had to correct Lauren's paper. She gave to me, then scurried away nervously (Like, in a shy, You know what I'm talking about way). Afterwards, I just put a star next to the grade to be nice... [hint][hint] Now, I don't know if I just have a lot of time to think, but... ya I do. I was thinking about those other girls I liked/liked me, and their plausable opinions about me, how they look, etc. It's just that... eeerrrruuhhh... I just suddenly liked Lauren a lot better now. I all of a sudden started to get a lot of "funny" looks from across the rooms after these events occuredI just think it's cool that we've actually met, and I actually know her. Also her friends don't think I'm an Id*ot. And she knows me. JUST to be clear, I don't like Lauren JUST because that note may have been her saying she likes me. I've just been thinking about a lot of stuff lately, and I find her a good decision. Let's skip onto about a week before Valentine's Day. I had been discussing this with "Greivous's Malevalence", for some advive. Time being a factor, I chose to ask her out (not bluntly but... saying I liked her and some other stuff, then asking her out). I spent the whole week procrastinating, until Friday the 13th (Where my school was having these wierd Valentine's Day specials, like buying roses, and sending your "special someone" a valentine-gram), I was out of options. It was lunch, and I knew if I waited until after school, I would nerve-out. I went the cowards way out, I asked one of my good friends (who's in my Math class, and sat near Lauren at the time) to ask Lauren (when got the chance) to have her meet me by our lockers (since her's mine are nearly right next to each other) to ask her something. I was disapointed to find out that she didn't meet me. But I have a very plausable answer to that: She rides the bus and is hardly at her locker after school anyway, so this isn't an anomaly. On the following Tuesday, I asked my friend what happened. He said that when he asked her, she was kind of annoyed. NOT by the fact that I wanted to meet her, but by the fact that she was tired at the time he asked her. So nothing has happened since then (except that I still get those looks in Math), so I've chosen (unless you guys can give me some good ideas) to take it slow until a good opurtunity/idea irises. I'll just find oppurtunities to be polite, and help her. But when something does happen: Here are some possible consiquences: BAD She ends up thinking I'm gross (for some unknown reason) and I end up with the awkwardness... because our lockers are next to each other. ><She's already dating someone and doesn't like me.She's already dating someone, and would like to go out with me if she wasn't already with someone else (bad/good)Just plain doesn't like meGOOD She already likes meShe likes me plainlyShe says yes after thinking about it.That's all I'm gonna post for now, as I'm very tired. BUT, why am I so sure that Arch Angel is going to immediatly disprove 90% of my theories. ~/\mph

EDIT: Sorry for the kinda non-deceiving title. It's just that in about 10 minute, I'll be going to the doctor's office to get my acne cleared up... that was kinda lame, but... meh. But, if this works, it will change how people think of me to an extent, which is a good thing. What a shlemiel. ~/\mph P.S. I may have an entry coming tonight about one of those topics I mentioned ealier, most likely it will be about the "new girl".

Yeah, but I strangly feel like I should get some more blog stuff. O_o

As you can imagine, during my abscence to my blog, many events have happened. Regarding my school life, home life, and other topics. Here are some updates and upcoming etries in the next week or so: @Birthday: Yeah, it was about a week ago, turned 13 on February 13th. Party was fine, day was kinda a bummer. I might have an entry on it, might not (probably not). @New Blog Design: As you can see, I'm changing the look of my Blog... again. I just want to refresh it a bit, trying some new stuff. Updating some old parts of it. @One Year of Lessons: Yep, one year. I pay a debt of graditude in the many lessons I've learned in my crush on Amanda. And WOW... a year. @New Girl: Yes, I've moved on. I'm WAAAAAY over Amanda. I've kinda already started something with her, but it's still on the wondering scale. There will be an entry on this tomarrow. Oh yeah, I actually know and have met this person. @New Dog: In about 2 week, I will be in ownership of my own dog. My parents got him for my birthday, and I got to meet him on Saturday. Sweet. @Room Renovation: I got my room renovated recently, and I'll post pics soon. Other entries are coming, but I'm too lazy to list them. See ya guys. ~/\mph

Ugh... My preimer membership expired... I also got my computer taken away. >< But, now I'm back with updates. ^^ I'll post em' this afternoon since I have to go to school. So stick 'round. ~/\mph

It's strange. That paragraph sums up about 80% of my feelings towards this girl in my Math class. O_o Odd...

Well... I just thought this was funny and I thought I should post it before I forget about it. This happened today at lunch when my friends were conversing about the Revenge of the Fallen trailer. I thought this was funny because we never talk about this "topic" at school. And was surproised they even brought it up like this. They like Transformers, but they're not "nerds" about it. So... Chase: "Dude! That GIANT robot at the end was awsome! It's like Cybertron!" Brent: "... Cybertron's a planet." Chase "It's also a Transformer!" ... Surprising to me. ~/\mph

*Climbs out of a giant pile of paper and other clutter* Uhh... my bad. THAT might explain some problems. But seriously, I haven't been here (this blog) in like, um, a year. It's nice to be back... sort of.

Here's the link. Actually, it's the second one on the list... You'll bathe in it's awsomeness.

June 26th.

[/size] O_O Oh.... My.... God.... The most AWESOME 30 seconds of my life. I just saw the Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen TV spot early. Since YT is BZP blocked, here's some teaser screen shots... a tease ^^ Starscream » Click to show Spoiler - click again to hide... « Optimus Prime » Click to show Spoiler - click again to hide... « Ravage » Click to show Spoiler - click again to hide... « See the whole thing tommarrow!

My birthday is in nearly wo weeks... yay. Turning 13 on Friday the 13th.

Well sorry.

Last night i learned how to play the theme from Transformers (where the Autobots land on Earth) on my Violin. Once I get better at it, I'm going to post a vid.

Hey, you're back. It the cover of a prequel comic for the new movie.

Four more words: Change. Has. Finally. Come. It was cool, though, that I got to watch the innoguration (I know I'm spelling that wrong) at school. Historic moment. ~/\mph

Bored. At 10:00 PM.

Well, she's pretty popular. She treats anyone who's not retarded pretty nicely, but not as nice as I have been treated. Also it's more than two. I'll make a list... err sort of thing. In order of period. 1st - Photography - Self explanatory (Her name's Shayna) 2nd - Strings - None 3rd - Math - Well... uh. There's a girl I've kind of liked, then she was assigned to sit next to me (Lauren). And there's someone who's been assigned to sit next to me that talks to me occasionally (Kaylee) (I just consider her a "mild" friend. I wouldn't ask her out). That girl sits behind me, and (as I said before) the other sits next to me. These two are both friends with one of Amanda's guy friends. Who sits behind me as well. Pretty much every period, him and the "Un-asking-out" girl talk to me. I don't know if he knows of the Me/Amanda history or not. 4th - Life Science - There's this one girl in this class, that I like, and has shown signs of liking me (Rose). Well, the first was back near the begginning of the year, I felt tapping on the back of my chair. I turned around and she was there, sort of smiling at me. Then there was a time at an assembly where she and one of her friends were sitting in front of me, and randomly her friend started asking me if I was a F*ggot. I just ignored her, but then the girl told her to stop and looked back at me nervously. 5th - Social Studies - There's that one girl who's treated me nicly before, but I'm not sure (Jamie)... 6th - English - There's this one girl (Victoria) who's friends with this other one that asked me out in the begginning of the year (around October, near the time we were doing our presentations about ourselves). I don't know much about her, but hey, I didn't about Amanda. So yeah. Right there. I wish not to rule any out, but just advice on all (don't hurt yourself). I would've contacted you earlier, but I've been flooring my room. Hradwood. I'll post pics once I got the chance. BUT, I do have a partially new class scedule tommarrow. So... chances.