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One negative thing today. The Seraphim album I ordered appears to be out of print, which sucks, because I was looking for it for quite some time. On some lighter notes... My latest order, which consists of 3 BoA albums, is on its way and I'll expect it some time next week, just like my other order. And I just sent my application for the global BoA fanclub. Gonna transfer the money Thursday because I'll have more time for it then. Aaand,... I'll be pre-ordering 2 singles this week, one by BoA, and one by the TRAX. Well, this concludes my entry. Cya around on BZP and don't forget to vote for Join the Inika, MDT Style!

Aw man, that sucks. Seems that we both experience some negative things these days. <.<;;

The order I made is on its way, made another order, bought a new dvd player... Sounds like a great week, doesn't it? Well, it wasn't all good. To start off, one of the items in my main order got cancelled because it got out of print right when I ordered it. Got a refund though which made my other order possible. Our old dvd player sucks, so we had to buy a new one, with me paying for it. And that leaves me no money whatsoever to become a member of the global BoA fanclub. <.<;; Oh well, everything comes at a price. Maybe I get some extra money next week for it... And I went to college yesterday for an interview for my study next year. (Pop and Media.) I got rejected and now there's no way for me to get into college next year, So I'll have to wait another fracking year to go back to school. All that hard work this year for nothing. Oh well, at least I get to see the new Guns 'n' Roses in 2 weeks.

Hmm, you're right. Aww, that sucks. Oh, but it is fun.

I guess I should practice more... But I nailed you with that rocket launcher yesterday.

Still a bit expensive to get there, but I'll see what I can do.

Been having a lot of fun with Jade Empire lately, I think I almost completed it. Man, hte game is addicting and it's a good way of keeping your mind distracted from other......things......in life. Also received Halo 2 Limited Edition yesterday. Never thought I'd find it for sale. Payment for my CD/DVD order is well on its way, so that's another plus. Gonna try to see if I can join the darned BoA fanclub this week. Still a hassle to get the money sent... And I bought a spiffy guitar yesterday. Hmm... it's going to be a busy week...

Okay.... do you happen to know where I can purchase one, hon?

Hmm, let's see... 4 albums: BoA - Love & Honesty Hyori Lee - Stylish...E Nightwish - Once X Japan - Dahlia 46 other songs: Ayumi Hamasaki - M (Above and Beyond Remix) BoA - Dakishimeru, Rock With You Breaking Benjamin - Sooner or Later Celldweller - Switchback CKY - As the Tables Turn (Burnout Revenge soundtrack, I believe.) Coco Lee - A Love Before Time (Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon theme song for those who are interested.) Fluke - Zion (Matrix Reloaded.) Gackt - Lust for Blood, Orenji no Taiyou (ft. Hyde) Guano Apes - Lords of the Boards hide - POSE Hot Action Cop - Busted Hyde - The Cape of Storms Iron Maiden - Be Quick Or Be Dead Kidneythieves - Crazy Lee Soo Young - Light Lena Park - Future Lordi - Hard Rock Hallelujah Loudness - The Seven Deadly Sins Malice Mizer - Au Revoir Nightwish - Nemo Nobuo Uematsu - Savior Onmyouza - Gainagateya Orbital - One Perfect Sunrise Paul Hardcastle - Rainforest Schwarz Stein - Queen of Decadence Seo Taiji - Watch Out Man Seraphim - Canticle SMG - Demaedou Iccyokusen, Heavy Metal Thunder Shadow Gallery- Torn Smile Empty Soul - Finding Myself Sonata Arctica - The End of This Chapter, The Misery Sonic Mayhem - Descent Into Cerberon Symphony X - Sea of Lies Tierra Santa - El Baston del Diablo, Flight of Icarus TRUSTcompany - Deeper Into You Twelve Girls Band - Shangri La Utada Hikaru - First Love, Passion Utah Saints - Techknowledgy VNV Nation - Further, Honour In other words: My standard stuff.

Well, I have the song Rainforest by Paul Hardcastle. It's a pretty cool song.

Hmm, I got my payment... €105.00... I hoped it was more... I'll be using that money to get a nice acoustic guitar and I'll try to join the BoA fanclub. I really hope it works. Good thing I had some extra money, because I ordered some stuff from The List. I modified the first order on the List and I combined it with the second order. So the stuff I ordered are: BoA: 8 FIlms And More... DVD. BoA: Best of Soul Arena Tour 2005 Live DVD. Hamasaki Ayumi: ayu Trance 1 Remix album. hide: Ja, Zoo album. Pretty expensive this time, but I'll get through it. Also got a complaint that I don't do my work in our gardens well enough... :angry: Those people here in the neighbourhood don't seem to understand that I'm unable to do it all by myself, since I got some physical isues going on. And my mother can't help either, because she too has physical problems. I just wish they'd shut up for once.

Thanks man. ^^ I hope I'll be in time as well.

Soon there'll be an official global BoA fanclub and I want to join, surprisingly. But there's a little problem. (As always. ) It appears that I need a passport to be able to join the club and it also appears that they don't accept payment through PayPal and such, which is bad. I think I'll have to do it through check or money order. :wakeup2: Don't have access to either of them. There's no problem in getting a passport though, but it takes a while for one to be created. And I only have 25 days left to join. That means I'll have to be fast. I should get my money this week, so I'll have enough to do just that and I'll be able to finally buy something from The List. On another note, I've entered the AC11 contest and I hope I'll get past the prelims for once. Got beaten by a darn Bohrok/reindeer hybrid last time. <.<;; As for music, I've found out, thanks to Princess Kex, that Shinedown is a good band, so I'll be listening to their music more often. Orbital's pretty interesting. Gotta check up on their music as well. Also got more Maki Goto songs, and most of them are pretty good. Some are pretty goofy though... That reminds me.... I'm still waiting for Ai to arrive. It's a cool album by Taiwanese symphonic/gothic metal band Seraphim.

Ah, thanks. I'll take it into consideration. Thanks. ^^ Ah, I see. 's Okay. ^^ Maybe some people are just too afraid to reply because of spam. Robots have their flaws as welll.

The list is far from complete... Haven't listed all the singles yet. Might've forgotten an album or 2 as well..

And that's very true, he needs music more than oxygen xD. What is this oxygen you speak of?

And here I am. Bored to death, not knowing what to type and listening to Miss Kwon's latest album, OUTGROW, which rocks in my opinion. Too bad there are only 5 new songs on it. Anywho, it's always a strange feeling when you're pretty well-known and no one replies on your latest artwork. Forgot how it felt, because it was a long time ago since that last happened. Until yesterday. I've been lurking in BA1 after the comic split-up and dang, my skills are out of date. Already seen some members with much better editing skills. Congrats guys. Haven't really noticed them before the split-up because of the edits... Hng, Everlasting just started. one of my favorite songs on OUTGROW and it's definately one of my favorite BoA songs ever. The lyrics, BoA's voice, the music... Everything's just so close to perfection. Just too bad that it's so darn distracting when playing Burnout 3. <.<;; I should get my money next week and then I'll be able to pay for the first order off the list in my last blog entry. I'm thinking of replacing the Valenti single with the Rock With You (Japan Version) single though. Not sure yet. That should be it for now... Cya around on BZP!

What can I say? Music is my life.

But it's not everything...

Heh, it was just another ordinary day on BZP... Posted a lot... Did some reports... All in all, I had fun. There were finally some replies in my latest art topic in COT... Thanks guys. I'll reply soon, I think. Maybe it's time to make a list about what I'm going to buy next off the internet. That way, I won't keep on forgetting it. Here it goes: 01.) BoA DVD: 8 Films & More... BoA Single: Valenti Ayumi Hamasaki Album: Ayu TRANCE 1 02.) BoA Live DVD: Best of Soul Arena Tour 2005 03.) BoA Album: No. 1 BoA Album: Love & Honesty BoA Album: My Name BoA Album: Listen to My Heart (Korea Version) BoA Album: Listen To My Heart (Japan Version) 04.) X Album: Blue Blood Ares Album: Digital Human Anthem Album: Eternal Warrior 05.) BoA Live DVD: Valenti Tour 2003 BoA Live DVD: Love & Honesty Tour 2004 06.) X Album: Say Anything (Ballad Collection) hide Album: hide Tribute Spirits TRAX Single: Scorpio (Japan Version) More coming later.

Yeah, music heals indeed. It healed my again late last night some time after posting this entry... Thanks... I hope that times improve as well. I haven't put everything in this blog entry, because some things aren't BZP appropriate. I was on the verge of giving up though in 2004.

Thanks guys.... I appreciate it. ^^ I don't have those bullies on my neck anymore and when I happen to see them, I smile (even if it's fake) and they frown. And I'm sure I'm going to enjoy life.

Dangit... Having one of those sudden feelings of sadness now and I don't know how to get over it... Happy thoughts don't work because, well, they end up in a lot of bloodshed. And it's certainly not good to listen to sad music right now... Hmm... maybe it's time to write off some issues I'm having... (Warning: This isn't going to be very easy to read...) I was bullied for a long time and it messed me up good. Got traumatized to such an extent that I even dropped out of college because I couldn't handle the stress. The bullying wasn't only at school, but also on the streets and at my father's house. (My parents are divorced.) I also had a stepsister who had a crush on me, which made everything even more confusing. In school, none of the teachers did anything against the bullies, despite me running indoors crying a lot of times in those 6 years. The bullying at my father's home was around the same time I was bullied in school. Everything started to pile up on me and I actually got therapy for it. The therapy worked for only a year or 2 when I was in high school. When I was in high school, I didn't get bullied. Until the latter part of the third year. Some guys thought it was funny to squeeze the air out of my lungs by pressing me and my chair against my desk. I got so ticked off at one time that I almost hit someone in the head. It's because my arm was a bit too short, or I might have killed him with one hard and precise blow to the head. After that, I got a real breakdown that went on even after the summer vacation. Sure, I got into another class, but that didn't quell my fear of being bullied again. That was around the year 2002-2003. In the next schoolyear, 2003-2004, I started to feel serious amounts of stress and it got so bad that I wanted to put an end to it (my life) in the 2004 summer vacation. It was also the time I got introduced into the Asian music by IXI through a pic of Lee Hyori. I listened to her music and the music of Fin.K.L. I liked the music, but I still felt depressed and devastated. And I went on a downloading spree of depressing music. And that's when I found my first BoA song. It was called Don't Give a ['Darn'] and for the first in a long period, I felt happy again; those suicidal feelings were gone. I even got so far to be accepted in college. Flash forward to 2005: I was doing pretty well in college and then it went wrong. All the stress and negative feelings came back and I stopped going to college. Dropped out eventually. So I went to look for help as soon as possible. And now I have the help and I'm finally getting back on track. I hope, because I'm out of money right now... Can't even go to the rehabilitation sessions this week. But I'll manage to solve that... The near future: Chances are that I'll be going back to college next schoolyear. Everything shall turn out good. Something else: I decided to sent that message to BoA anyways. All I need now is a reaction, but I doubt I'll get one. EDIT: Just updated my Personal Photo.

Okay, might do it tonight or tomorrow. Nope, I'm a guy. I'm glad you feel that way.