Maybe 2020 will be a good year.
2019 for me was just a lot of surviving and recovery. I'd just like some peace in the new year.
2019 wasn't all bad. Even some of the more challenging moments lead to some good things this year. I know a little more about myself now.
This was the first year I didn't go to pride adter going two years a row to the Seattle pride parade. I'm back in Ohio now and Pride isn't really celebrated in my hometown. This next year I s
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After episode one was a rousing success, and popular demand, we are here on episode 2!
During this holiday season, work has been keeping me busy. On my days off, however, I feel a bit of unease. There really isn't much to do here in my hometown. I have no local friends, no means to get out of the house and really no place to go hang out if I could get out anyway. I find myself missi
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I've been watching the new Ducktales. It has some pretty good moments in it and I find it very charming.
Also Steven Universe Future has aired four episodes and they are very good. They deal with aspects of the show I've been dying to see for a long time.
Other than that, work has been stressful. I feel like I'm screwing up a lot, but that comes with being new to a job. I'm increasingly unsure if baking is something I want to be doing for the rest of my life. I'm als
Edit: Still alive here.
Sorry for the screaming, I just remembered the blogs exist this morning and I only had a minute before I started work to make an entry for old times sake. Given the short time I had, I feel it was good.
Anyway, uhhhhhhhh stuff has been happening. I got a job, quit that job and then got another job. The second job seems good so far. I actually get to take
you to shut up Queen Watevera WaNabi's build Whatever box and it looks fun despite the fact I can't MOC to save my life. Also I will never have time to play with it, it will end up rotting in my collection and why did I do this to myself? ~Tekulo
Finally saw The LEGO Movie 2 and Not Evil has been stuck in my head. I also really like Catchy Song and Gotham City Guys. I mutter the lyrics to them under my breath as I work in a bakery to stop the dreaded feeling that life is terrible. ANYWAY This song is now stuck inside my hea-a-a-ad. ~Tekulo
Keeping this susinct, I moved back to Ohio for medical reasons. I had a second mental breakdown, failed to set up proper doctors at the West Coast, and I had to pack up, move and say goodbye in less than a day (which wasn't easy on two different levels). I'm going through a long and expensive process of getting a new diagnosis. I am on new meds now. Some professionals seem to think I'm bipolar. We'll see. So yeah I was reckless with my health, I was overworked and constantly making o
Hey everyone! Been a while. Life's been keeping me busy with work, walks, family visiting, the occasional (very occasional) trip to Seattle and procrastination on things that are important that I should be doing right now. I got about... five(?) hours of sleep last night and I'm at the end of my day so boy howdy that is a thing. XP (meanwhile someone out there reading this is on no sleep for the past three days and is screaming at their computer screen right now). There's a lot I could p
I just got back home from the movies. I'm normally not a movie person, personally. Movies tend to be about heteronormative romances on the side of some other quirk designed to sell tickets for whatever special effects the industry wants to show off this time. Okay, maybe that's a tad unfair because I'm not a movie person, but that's how I generally view them. And it's not like I dislike every movie. But mostly I stick to Disney movies. That has changed lately as I am now a bus ride or a decent w
I just can't get my hopes up anymore. I really just want to be happy. But that doesn't just happen after years of depression and anxiety. I would love it, really love it, if I could just not be anxious or depressed anymore. But I could move a thousand times and life could go perfectly and I'd still be stressed out. It takes work and it takes time and there are going to be days where I'm just exhausted and miserable and don't want to deal with anything. I dunno. I feel I've had a
So this is just me trying to figure out where I stand on my gender identity. I know to some this could seem like "oh what a special snowflake -eyeroll-" but this blog isn't for those people. So... I identify as genderqueer. That could mean a lot of different things potentially. For me it's... weird. I kind of alqays identified with female leads in storytelling more so than male ones. I kind of realized lately that I think I hold myself to a feminine standard of beauty. Like for exa
So this past weekend I decided to spend a night in Seattle. I got some bonus cash over the holidays so I decided to give it a go. Now, this was my first trip that I've fully planned by myself. Booking the hotel, making travel arrangements, etc. It was a bit stressful as things didn't go totally as planned. XD Luckily for me, I have a friend who lives in the area who was able to show me around. And, well, I honestly loved it. I don't know why, but I've always sort of loved cities. The people,
Whew, been a while. So to keep y'all updated, I did go through with the move to WA. I have a room for rent in a house and my landlord and housemate are very nice people. Being in OH with my family was a way stressful living situation so hopefully my time here will give me some space to breathe. Also, you know, it seems generally more LGBT friendly than where I was before. Like I'm still in a more conservative area, but nobody knows me here and omg that alone is so much less pressure. Bu
Turn and face the strAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA I GOT A JOB IN WASHINGTON AS A PASTRY CHEF AND I ACCEPTED IT AND NOW I HAVE TO APARTMENT HUNT AND FIND A PLACE TO LIVE WITHIN A MONTH AND THIS IS REAL ACTUAL ADULT STUFF THAT MY EDUCATION AND LIFE EXPERIENCES DID NOT PREPARE ME FOR. WHAT IS? HOW DO? But, like, everyone at work keeps telling me finding a place is the easy part and that I'll be fine and that is reassuring. @w@ This is gonna be fuuuuuuuuuuuuuun.
So... long story short SUMMER HAPPENED AND IT IS STILL HAPPENING OMG I think the last time I was on here was before the start of my summer job. Idk dudes and female dudes, I'm too lazy to check. BUT ANYWAY This summer has been... an adventure so far. Things I've done: I've cuddled with a couple of cute guys. I've had my first boyfriend (that only lasted about a month and a half, but while it was short lived it was really sweet) I made a friend irl who is a dude that falls under the
Made it to my work site for the summer. Lots of snow so far (at least 10 feet) There is no Internet where I'm living now, so unfortunately I won't be able to keep up with BIONIFIGHT or BZPGOT. Hopefully it will be up by next week. Aside from some very irritating drama, things are going fine. My roommate is nice and I start work tomorrow. Hopefully my patience won't be tried too much. Uuuuuugghhhhhh I hate stupid drama.
So, I left with a friend earlier this morning and we are driving across America to the West Coast over the next three days. I didn't get much sleep last night, I was pretty anxious. I know that staying at home and jobless was bad for me, and I know that this is a good thing, but I still hate goodbyes.