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  1. Cyrix
    wow look i'm returning to bzpower for a hot second to see what's up after x years away! i am super unique in this aspect! look how subversive and cool i am!
     
    in all seriousness thought i'd come back here for a hot second and say hey. was never super active in the community but had a lot of good memories from here, and this site actually taught me some about interacting with people. i'm super grateful for both of those things, and i'd like to say that things in my life are good, not great but good, and i've got a lot to be thankful for.
     
    bionicle was an important part in my life, still got a guy sitting on my desk in my apartment (my apartment, back in the day those two words together wouldn't even make sense), and i owe bzp a decent bit. maybe i'll haunt this blog a little more often, we'll see
     
    <3
  2. Cyrix

    10... YEARS?

    By Cyrix,

    (as in "metal... GEAR??)
     
    So apparently last Wednesday was my 10 year anniversary on BZPower. Which is pretty weird to think about. I've certainly learned a lot since then. And I'm an adult now??
     
    Seems really long ago. A lot has changed. I've changed.
     
    Maybe when I'm bothered to actually get off of my butt and do something I'll write a bit about what all that means and what's going on in my life.
     
    In the meantime, I'll slink back into on-and-off activity.
     
    Cheers!
  3. Cyrix

    important pokemon advice

    By Cyrix,

    okay so there will be a life update here sometime soon because a lot has happened and most of it is good and exciting
     
    however i need some important advice on a pokemon thing
     
    so i got red on my 3ds and because i am trash i did the mew glitch
     
    not sure whether i'll be able to transfer it to SuMo yet but what do you guys think i should name the thing? suggestions gogogo
  4. Cyrix

    Being an Adult (1/?)

    By Cyrix,

    So I turned/am turning 18 today.
     
    A bit of a weird feeling. My childhood is officially over. Made me think about things a little more than I'm comfortable with.
     
    On the other hand, I bought a rad as heck cardigan, I'm spending the day in Chicago, and I'm on my way to see my brother for the first time in a while.
     
    So for now, things are good, I think. Stay tuned for updates.
  5. Cyrix
    I haven't played any of the Fallout games before, but I got caught up in my friends' hype over Fallout 4 and I have to say it looks like the kind of game I would like. It's got intense customization of both character skills and character appearance, and it gives plenty of room for your character to develop and grow if you want to roleplay- at least, from what I've seen and heard of it. Plus the setting and aesthetic seem unique enough, so...
     
    Do you think I should get my first Fallout game by buying Fallout 4?
  6. Cyrix
    Ever feel like despite everything you do, you just can't get control over life?
     
    The past few months (two months, really) have been awful, to say the least. Just as I get a handle on having a good group of close friends and being confident in myself, senior year hits me like a wall. AP classes and college apps are pushing me to my breaking point, and it's been really hard. My self-esteem issues that I thought I had banished to the recesses of my mind have flared up something nasty again. I've talked to people and I'm thinking of seeing a therapist, but I'm still in the process of talking to my parents about that and, on top of that, there just isn't enough time. It seems that at every turn I either need to get my grades up (since when did we start thinking that B+s are bad? Especially in rigorous courses?) or do college essays or applications, and each bit of progress I make on either seems to be immediately knocked down by the sheer amount of work I need to do on both. I fluctuate between my light-hearted, pun-loving self and a sadder, pained one that does nothing but worry and work to close to no avail.
     
    Look, I've been on BZP for more than 9 years and I never made much of an impact on the community. I never really connected with many people here, save for a few a couple of years ago and of them all I seem to be the only one who actually looks at this site anymore. So I realize that me venting my problems out doesn't mean much to most of you, but it helps. Yeah I can talk to people I know IRL, and that is incredibly therapeutic (note: talking to people who love you about things that trouble you is one of the best actions to take in a myriad of ways, if you don't usually do this please do so) but something draws me back here to vent occasionally. I think it's the fact that despite maybe not being the most involved, I know that this is a community of people that are caring, compassionate, and understanding, despite the blog wars and whatnot that tend to say otherwise. Plus, I've learned a lot here about being tolerant towards all people regardless of their background or identity, and maybe a little bit about life as a whole. BZP has played a part in me becoming someone that I admire and that I love, and for that I owe you.
     
    I may not know you too well, despite having known you for a while, but I can't thank you enough, BZP.
  7. Cyrix

    MOC Halp

    By Cyrix,

    So I've been slowly touching up a few of the MOCs that have been collecting dust on my shelf, and there's been a problem with one that I can't seem to fix.
     
    PICTURE
     
    I've been stuck on how to armor the forearm in a way that's not too obtrusive but still covers it. Most ways that I've tried either stick out too much or aren't white (which is the color scheme of the MOC in question). So I'm looking for suggestions. Any ideas would be much appreciated.
  8. Cyrix

    Things I Want to Happen

    By Cyrix,

    (note: most of these pertain to movies, video games, etc. so don't keep reading if that's not yo thang)
     
    I want:
     
    -Marvel Studios to purchase the rights to Fantastic Four back, but do nothing much with the actual Fantastic Four themselves. Rather, give Doctor Doom a solo movie that leads into Avengers 4, in which he's the main villain. In said movie, he's presented at first as a sympathetic child born from tragedy (his mother gets killed in a deal with the devil I mean that kinda sucks). It manages to create a well-rounded character more like the one presented in the comics and includes the advancement of both his magical and technological skill, and the second half deals with how he overthrows the Latverian government and establishes himself as king. So we get both magical, sci-fi, and political intrigue in a movie that's a pretty stark (heh) departure from most comic-book movies.
    -Brett Dalton to play Nathan Drake, nonnegotiable
    -A television series based off of FTL: Faster than Light. Each episode contains an event or two, and each season is a sector (with the exception of the eighth and last season, which contains both the Crystal Sector and The Last Stand). We get new cast members every season as more crew members are recruited; at the same time, main character deaths are frequent to simulate the heartbreak and utter frustration from the game.
    -A weird, action-packed, summer-blockbuster-fun zombie apocalypse movie starring Emma Watson, Anthony Mackie, Ellie Kemper, and Jeff Bridges. It would be gloriously bizarre.
    -A has-science-gone-to-far extension of the capture of Mew/creation of Mewtwo, with Dr. Fuji as the main character. Contains themes that pertain to modern genetic research.
    -The Heroes reboot to be good.
    -Robert Downey, Jr. to guest star on Marvel's Agents of Shield as a lead in to Captain America: Civil War. This is probably the most likely to happen, a lot more likely than the one directly above this one.
    -World peace.
    -A sequel to Space Jam about the military-industrial complex. This is a joke, but dangit i want more space jam
    -Charlize Theron or Emily Blunt as Captain Marvel. Call me mainstream, but I think they'd be good for the role based on what I have heard secondhand and what other people have told me but also slightly maybe my opinion (I really do think they'd be good for it)
    -Andy Serkis in everything.
    -More hats.
     
    To be honest this started with five or six serious ideas and devolved into a bunch of jokes and random opinions so this is what it's come to I guess, time to procrastinate more for this physics test bye
  9. Cyrix

    2008 what if

    By Cyrix,

    I always thought that the whole concept of Shadow Matoran during 2008 was really bland. A leech attaches on to them and drains their "inner light" and suddenly they're evil and a flying thing has to scream at them so they can be good again and yes right okay
     
    Wouldn't it have been more interesting if the Makuta had come in and like persuaded them to abandon their faith in Mata Nui? Which I suppose would have been hard right after Matoro used the MoLife to resurrect Mata Nui, but disillusionment with Mata Nui is something that 2006 and 2007 dealt with or at least touched upon in some aspect. And it would have been more emotionally resonant if the Shadow Matoran fought the Av-Matoran of their own free will for something they actually believed in rather than the Makuta turning them purely evil and that's that.
     
    Just a thought.
  10. Cyrix
    So after a few days of hatching Charmander eggs, I got lucky and got this guy. Literally did a double take when I realized he was shiny. 5 IV, but not exactly the 5 IVs I was looking for- I got Attack instead of HP (I'm gonna train him to be a special glass cannon or something) but that's not too consequential.
     
    However, I'm at a loss for what to name him, so please write some suggestions for me in the comments! Keep in mind that he'll be a Charizard someday. Looking from anything from cool to casual, maybe something to do with fire. gogogo
  11. Cyrix

    so i completed the dex

    By Cyrix,

    MY EYES BURN WITH THE STRENGTH OF A THOUSAND SUNS
     
    GTS is incredibly helpful though, if occasionally infuriating.
     
    time to waste more of my life try to hatch a shiny charmander
  13. Cyrix

    800?

    By Cyrix,

    So a few days ago I made my 800th post even though I've been here since 2006. Which is like nine years.
     
    whaaaaAaAaAAaat am i even doing
     
    I need to get back on that, I guess. But I have the Stars Hau so that's cool. One more year until Hapori Tohu!
  14. Cyrix

    This is the Week

    By Cyrix,

    So this is the week of everything. Which sounds like every week in high school but.
     
    Tomorrow we test our physics project: a windmill that, when powered by a fan, has to lift a 100 gram weight one meter off of the ground. The catch: we're graded by our time; the person whose windmill lifts the weight in the shortest amount of time gets a 100%, and the rest of the grades are based off of that. The lowest time gets, at most, an 80%. It's worth three lab grades. While I get why the project is graded this way, as it's impossible to predict what times people will get and you can't give everyone an A+, it's still pretty nerve-wracking. But last time I checked my relatively simple windmill had one of the highest times in the class, so I don't have too much to worry about.
     
    I also have an English research paper due at the end of the week. What I have so far is pretty shoddily done, which is sad because I like English and writing is one of my passions. But there's too much Skyrim to play to do a good job on it so
     
    Finally, I'm getting my wisdom teeth out on Friday. Half curious, half nervous, half terrified of what's gonna happen, but I'm probably gonna lock up my cell phone so that I can't do anything stupid with it while under the effects of the anesthetic.
     
    In better news, I have found another prom date. Another good friend of mine who didn't have a date yet agreed to go with me; she was very excited about it and I had flowers and everything which made it pretty nice. In addition, I talked with the friend I was going to ask before (see my last entry). Turns out that she was feeling the pressure of her friends asking her to date her best friend (me), and so she panicked when she learned when I was gonna ask her to prom. She admitted to and apologized for not taking the best course of action; it was a really heartfelt apology. I really am not the person to be mad at people, so we decided to pick up and be chill again. In addition I've been working on a super secret writing project that you guys will hopefully see in a couple of months.
     
    But all of that was last week. This is this week. It's gonna be a doozy.
     
    back to skyrim i guess
  15. Cyrix

    Hey Guys

    By Cyrix,

    So my promposal got turned down today. Kind of, I didn't even get to ask, she avoided me in the morning when I was gonna ask her and I later had to find out second-hand that she was going to say no if I asked. She never told me up front. Gave the flowers to my mom so I guess that's nice.
     
    Don't worry too much about me, I'm handling it as best I can. And today I got to see how much my friends really cared about me, which was incredibly heartwarming. If anyone has any corny jokes, puns, gifs, or just general comforts that would be appreciated. I'll probably explain the whole situation in entirety later, but for now I'd rather not.
     
    Thanks. Peace.
  16. Cyrix
    First off, hi there! Been a while. I'll post a life-update thing soon-ish.
     
    Anyways, my high-school orchestra conductor may be one of the nicest, most supportive people I have ever met or will ever meet. He's an older man, but he's always full of a joyful energy and can often be seen with a huge grin across his face. He always tells us that he loves us and that we're his favorites, and it's one of the most adorable, fulfilling things to hear him talk.
     
    So a few days ago (last Friday, to be exact) we come in for our daily orchestra class. We're all pretty worn out- it's been a long week. He picks up on this, and after we tune he selects me, one of my good friends, and maybe about six other kids and tells us to follow him as he briskly walks out of the classroom. We have to struggle to keep up as he exits the music hall and strolls into the school, finally stopping at the vending machines.
     
    Once we all get there, he pulls out a big wad of cash and starts inserting money into one of the vending machines and ordering drinks.
     
    He gives us all money and tells us to do the same, and we finally pick up on what he's doing- he's buying drinks for the entire orchestra. And there's maybe about 30-40 kids in the orchestra, too. So we do what he says and buy a bunch of beverages from the vending machines, and then once we've bought a sufficient amount we carry them all back to the orchestra room and distribute them. All the while he's just smiling and watching us enjoy our treat.
     
    To think that spending an hour a day with a bunch of high-schoolers makes someone so happy that they would spend their own money to cheer us up.
     
    I can't think of any words to describe him. He's just an amazing guy. Just think the polar opposite of J.K. Simmons from Whiplash.
  17. Cyrix

    It's Cold Outside!

    By Cyrix,

    It's cold outside! Not cold enough to snow where I'm at, unfortunately, but it's still pretty darned cold!
     
    So try to spread some warmth! Smile, laugh, be happy. When you talk to someone, don't frown, try to give them some cheer! Because being warm is certainly a lot more fun than being cold. It's the holidays, everyone! Be excellent to people!
     
    Happy holidays, BZP! <3
     
    Love,
    Cyrix
  19. Cyrix

    Canonization

    By Cyrix,

    wow guys all of this talk about canonization has really got me fired up like people keep trying to canonize every minute detail and
     
    wait
     
    i guess we've moved on from that already?
     
    nvm
  21. Cyrix

    XCOM: Enemy Unknown

    By Cyrix,

    So I stumbled upon XCOM: Enemy Unknown while mindlessly browsing the Steam Store. Once I looked at it, I was A. bewildered that I had never seen this before and assumed that this rock I had been living under was in fact hindering my knowledge of the outside world and B. instantly hooked. I tried to tell myself that I would wait until the Winter Sale to nab it.
     
    I caved. It's downloading now.
     
    I'm cautiously optimistic, so you guys tell me: was it worth? #worth, even?
  22. Cyrix

    Self-Esteem Issues

    By Cyrix,

    Hey everyone. So for the past few days I've been having some pretty bad self-esteem issues irl. Not sure whether I want to discuss them all right now, not that I'd have the time. A lot of them have to do with not liking who I am, which isn't a very specific description, and it's more complex than that. Actually broke down crying while driving home from school today, but that was one of the low points.
     
    Not really sure why I'm posting this. Maybe just to say it somewhere. Not really asking anything from anyone, but if anyone has any advice I wouldn't mind and would probably be pretty grateful.
     
    Thanks.
  23. Cyrix

    Phase 3

    By Cyrix,

    phase 3 looks great and ahhhhhh
     
    Especially excited for Captain Marvel (Carol Danvers!) and Black Panther because those are gonna be great. Intrigued to see where Civil War is gonna go.
     
    And it's cool to see things coming to a head with Infinity War.
     
    many excite eeeeeeeeeee
  24. Cyrix

    Before Hero Factory Ends

    By Cyrix,

    Just a hero I built a while ago. Simple, but I like him. I think his name ended up being Darius Brawler?
     
    here is a link
     
    For those curious, he uses two torso skeleton pieces, one as his main skeleton and one to give him the extra bulk.
  25. Cyrix
    (If I did manage to say anything offensive in this post, please leave a comment below telling me what I did wrong so I may correct it. I wrote this in a not very long amount of time with almost no preparation or revision. Thank you.)
     
    I grew up (and still am growing up, I'm still an angst-ridden teenage junior in high school) in a fairly small town in a Midwestern state where not a lot really happened. To call it sheltered might be an overstatement, but growing up I wasn't too aware of the problems facing our society. It just wasn't something that I really worried about because, as a child, it wasn't something that directly affected me.
     
    I was a pretty goody-two-shoes kid, but I had a really, almost dangerously strong moral compass. (At least I like to think so.) I wanted everyone to be my friend; I was nice to anyone I met. I wouldn't hurt a fly, physically or verbally- not that I would start shouting at an insect, but you get the point. Granted, this made me a bit of a pushover because I didn't want to make anyone mad at or disappointed with me. To an extent, this is all still true today. I try to be a little more carefree, but I still try to be as nice and kind as possible.
     
    For the most part, people were nice to me as well, and I thought the world was a pretty swell place. It was somewhere people could all get along: everyone was equal, no one had any reason to fight or disagree, all was at peace.
     
    As I grew older, things changed. I began to see the prevalence of racism, sexism, and other injustices in our society. It baffled me. I was still approaching the world with a everyone-gets-along mentality, and thus I was pretty confused. Why would people be mean to each other in this way? I thought everyone was friendly? All of this was something that I had trouble wrapping my mind around.
     
    I learned about the significance of racism long before sexism and gender stereotyping, and even then I didn't really understand the full scope of racism until much later. As far as late-grade-school me was concerned, racism had stopped at the Civil Rights Movement. I didn't realize how blatantly wrong I was until much later. Maybe it was because I was in a fairly sheltered environment; we quite simply didn't discuss things like this, and as a result I didn't know that they existed.
     
    But I soon learned. Going into middle school and high school, my eyes were soon opened to the injustices of the world. Yes, discrimination against races and genders and other groups was frequent in the world, not everyone got along, not everything was at peace. To put it lightly, this baffled me. I couldn't accept that I had been living in a world where these things happened. For a while, I didn't accept this. I didn't accept that I lived in a world where feminism was necessary because I didn't think it should have been necessary. Why couldn't we all just be equal? Why couldn't we all just be friends?
     
    Thus began the deterioration of my innocence. I began to question, I began to learn. Learn about stereotyping, learn about how unequal some of us were and how privileged others were. I approached it from a unique perspective because I think I managed to avoid a lot of the bias and discriminatory views that would have been ingrained in me just because of my innocence. Granted, I'm not completely unbiased (especially as a straight half-white male coming from the community that I did), but I was emerging from a simulation where everyone was equal and entering a reality where everyone was not.
     
    I was scared. But I soon came to accept this, and began to formulate my own opinions about things in high school. One of my closest friends (and probable soulmate) helped me with this. She opened my eyes to racism and sexism in our society and how unbalanced everything and everyone was. In addition, the fact that the internet began to spotlight these things with greater frequency also helped. Yes, that means you, BZP.
     
    So I soon became an advocate for social justice. I now know that racism and sexism are present in our society. I know everyone isn't equal, and I know that we have to fix that. I know that feminism is necessary. I'm not the innocent kid that I used to be, and part of me misses that kid because it was a lot easier being that kid and not worry about saying the wrong thing or doing something offensive. But I had to accept the reality that I live in a society where those things can happen, and I had to accept how I had to change in order to not do that.
     
    Granted, I'm certainly not perfect. I'm still learning, and every once in a while I might say something wrong or do something wrong, and I apologize for that. But I'm getting there. I know first-hand that it's a journey.
     
    And, even though I'm certainly not at my destination, I've come pretty far.
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