Hey, folks. Today is my 8th anniversary of BZPower, so I thought I pop in and attempt to write a reflection entry of sorts for this. No doubt I'll end up rambling about stuff, so it probably be boring to read, I imagine. *shrugs*
Well, start right off, I can't believe it been eight years. Man, I been on this site for long time. Of course, not as long as some of you. But still, eight years is long time to be in same place, especially on the internet. And well, I can't say I regret it since I still very much enjoy visiting this site and reading all your thoughts on the forums here.
Although it would be nice if I was more active in the forums here. Yes, I realize that I am only one holding myself back in that regard. Really now that I think about it, I imagine the reason for my lack of activity here lately has more to do with fact that I am, well, completely unsure of myself this year. Like I just don't know what I want to do both in real life and online lately. *shrugs*
I guess I shouldn't be hugely surprise by that fact though since I kind of felt like this since I graduated from Community College last year because I am rather conflicted about applying to other companies since I almost feel like I am betraying the company that I am currently working out by doing that.
There is also question of whether or not I should go for higher degree than my associate's in Applied Mechanical Engineering. Like part of me is very much against the idea because I know I will have to take a language course and I don't have confidence in myself that I will be able to pass such a course considering how bad I am with English. There is also public speaking course that I will have take, which I know I will struggle in due to how timid I am at times. *shrugs*
Of course, there is another part in me that says that I don't do it, then I will probably end up being pay barely more than minimum wage for rest of my life, which isn't great really. *shrugs*
But anyway, to get off that tangent, my point is I hadn't feeling hugely motivation lately to really do anything creativity here. I think I need to get involve in something here. I just don't know what. It definitely can't be Critics Club thing since I don't have time for that (Especially not epics, Short Stories maybe...But I rather write a review at my own pace than deal with a week's deadline honestly.). Hm....I would consider an RPG, but I know from experience how much I just love to read everyone's posts, even if my characters are not even interact with them; so I don't know.
I guess I could try to do some MOC-ing since I definitely enjoy doing a bit of that back in December. So yeah, I guess I could do that. I doubt it will be anything that you folks would be interest in though, especially considering it probably wouldn't be Bionicle based since I am not very good with making humanoid figures. *shrugs*
lol I like how I say this was going to reflect about my eight years here and instead I am I just writing about this year mostly. XD But hey, it counts, I guess. I mean I probably would just end listing all the "jobs" that I have on BZPower over years, which is probably boring for you all to read. Not reading what I already wrote above is very exciting or interesting either. *shrugs*
You know what I'll write up that list here anyway because why not since if you don't want to read it, you can and will leave. Okay, so here is brief run down of "jobs" on BZPower that I have held over years:
- Amateur Author
: When I first came to this site, library forums here were what instantly pull me in here and it is why to this day, I still tend to view the library forums as my home here. The first story that I ever wrote for this site was a epic by name of Watis's Life, which was probably one of my worst epic ever written.
Although oddly enough, Watis and Torickparu are actually one of my favorite characters in my collection works here. I am not sure why exactly, but I guess there is a reason why I gave them a cameo in my Takanuva story that I have never post here since that's story is still incomplete. Oh, speaking of Watis's Life, I actually have a bit of reference to another BZPer's work in that story since I took joke of bad things always happening to Nuparu from a comedy on forums involving Nuparu and Makuta, I think.
: So obviously since my early days were library centric, I naturally was a reviewer of other people's works here. Admittedly my reviews starting out were awful. But over time and experience with Epic Critics Club (I was part of the Club during reign of Twenty-Two & daydreamer. I refuse call myself a critic though since I feel like I am not talent enough for that title. Its partly why I left Short Story Critics since I felt like I wasn't good enough for the job in general.), I was able to get bit better and start provide people with better quality reviews.
Of course, I got overwhelm with school work and stuff eventually, so I did end up leaving the Epic Critics Club. However somewhere down line I got time again and join up with Short Story Critics for a bit before eventually leaving again due to life in general and fact that I don't think I am good enough to be one.
- Role Player
: So during one of my brief breaks from Epic Critics, I end up joining an RPG for first time and it was called Bionicle Kingdoms. And well, it was pretty fun. I just wish though that looking back that I have avoid creating my semi self insert character for it since that was an awful mistake of mines. Although even weirder is I was actually made a Game Master for one of sequel RPGs and man, I wish I did better at that. So many regrets. XD
Well, that's all "jobs" on this site that I really had. I definitely have my share of regrets with them, although there were plenty of good times with them as well.
With that said though, I think I done enough reflecting here for one day. So I am calling this entry and post it. Thanks for taking the time to read this folks. I hope to see you all in another eight years. =P Talk to later, BZPers.
- JMJ 2013