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-Windrider-

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  1. I'd honestly love to hear more about your studies, since until like, sophomore year of undergrad, I was convinced I needed to go all-out in physics (and ended up doing French lit). So it's cool to see someone else doing it~

  2. will you

     

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    with me

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  3. @Imrukii

     

    I'm not sure what the middle two paragraphs have to do with anything; you wanted the other side of what happened and I gave it. But you're kind of missing the point; my mental health has nothing to do with my identity and being. Far from being told I could only 'think' I'm trans if I had no grip on reality; i.e., I shouldn't exist.

     

    @Iaredios

     

    Not sure what that has to do with all this.

  4. Okay, fine.

     

    I came out as trans to BZP in December 2014. Among the two pages of extremely supportive and encouraging comments, there was one that deviated so severely that I couldn't even process it. Of course the original is edited out, and no way in ###### was I going to save those words, but it's still buried in a report somewhere. Paraphrased, what he thought was a nice mod was actually a psychopath, that I had no grip on reality, etc. Out of a supposed fairness, I let someone else take care of it, though honestly, it just meant I couldn't stand up for myself. That comment is one of the most hurtful things ever said to me, to the point where the words briefly flashed in my mind during a suicide attempt last May because someone who was supposed to love me unconditionally couldn't accept me either. It continued and his punishments got more severe, though of course he deleted all the public stuff, culminating here in 2016 when I wasn't staff anymore. I wasn't the only target, but as upper staff I was the most prominent, and likely the one he hurt the most. In any case, at least three strikes of breaking the intolerance, respect for members, and respect for staff rules is out.

     

    So, during the past two years, I slowly learned to stand up for myself. I don't know what this unity thing you're going on about is, but if learning to love and defend myself against such speech is some ostensible hatred thrown at others, whatever. Letting someone else's pain dictate my being for so long nearly killed me, and though the BZP example is somehow the less extreme of the two and never would have reached that particular point, things here affected more people than just me. I've all but moved on from this site and really don't have any investment anymore, but dang if stuff like that doesn't stick to you.

     

    There's the other side, then. No amount of platitudes or abstraction can justify unerring and shamelessly hateful attacks. You're putting hatred on the wrong side. Asserting oneself is far from that. And no, I'm not about to reconcile my own doing so with bigotry again.

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